She is Not Who You Thought She Was

Chapter 4/To-Go

"That was very inappropriate." Blair spoke sternly while I picked at my siamese chicken.

"What was?" I asked then popped the piece of chicken in my mouth.

"With Brandon tonight. You shouldn't of acted that way."

"What? That I walked away so you could keep on flirting with that stranger."

"Scarlett Isobel!" My mom scolded.

"What?"

"I don't know if I like this version of you." Blair spoke spinning her chow mein on the end of her fork.

"It's never bothered you before."

"Scarlett..."

"What?" I said a bit too loudly. Why can't she just leave me alone? This is my choice. My decison.

"Don't you think it is time to find yourself? You know....figure out who you actually are?" My mom said hesitantly. It was awkward when my mom would try to talk to me this way...but now that my dad is gone...she has to be the one.

"What other way is there? This is me." I lied.

"Oh it is?" Blair titled her head gestured at me in a 'I do not believe you'.

"You asking that just proves you don't know me." I glared at her rudely.

I swiftly left the table and went upstairs into the safety of my bedroom.

What does she want from me? She knows this is what I do. Why is it just now bothering her?

I can figure this out on my own this time I don't need anyone.

After I showered I got my clothes ready for the next day and brushed my teeth. I couldn't wait to sleep. Being someone your not can be tiring. It is just a different version of me, but it is not me, not truthfully. I don't know why I do this...When I was younger I just did it for fun, but why am I continuing until my adult years? Is this okay? Will I be able to find a job and figure out what I want to do with my life after college?

Shit this could be a real problem.

***

The day was going to be good. I had all the other students and professors hating me already. I also had my little posey, Bellatrix and Roxy.

I ran my straightener through her thick brown hair one more time before going downstairs.

"Good morning." Blair said pouring her coffee in a to-go cup. My mom is an accountant manager so she always has to dress in pencil skirts and button ups.

"Mornin'." I mumbled grabbing a mug and pouring coffee in it. I could feel the tension growing by the second. I sipped on my coffee not trying to notice the tension

"Well I need to go I can't be late." Blair said grabbing her keys off the granite island.

"Mom..." Scarlett spoke.

"No Scarlett I am late."

"It is only 7:35, you're not going to be late. Don't make it like this between us." I said leaning on the counter.

"I did not do this you did Scarlett."

"Don't blame me!" I shouted. "You are the one flirting with the first man you meet in this town! Dad died only ten months ago!"

"Scarlett you know-" My mom started.

"No I am going to school see you later Blair." I said snatching my keys off the counter and walking towards the door. I heard her sigh as I walked past her, but I don't care.