She is Not Who You Thought She Was

Chapter 81/Handprint

Trigger Warning: Physical Abuse +18

"She invited Principal Rivera to your house!?"

"Trix you are going to get us kicked out of the library hush up." I complained to her.

"Sorry sorry." She whispered. "Are you serious?"

"You think I'd make this up?" I gave her a look.

"True true." She nodded vigorously.

"So you are having dinner with the principal to talk about...your intelligence?" Roxy asked with what looked like confusion and disgust.

"My mom just blurted it out." I shrugged. "I honestly don't know what she is thinking." I sighed.

Bellatrix and Roxy don't know a lot about my mom. They met her briefly once when they came over, but that was all. The only thing that Bellatrix and Roxy know about my mom's possible adultery is that she flirted with Brandon before she knew he had a wife and kids. The only other person who knows the same as me is Rock. There is a lot that only Rock knows.

"How are things going with Frostee?" Trix asked changing the dying subject.

"Frostee? Fine." I answered vaguely.

"Fine?" Trix and Roxy questioned me.

I stared in between them and they looked back wide eyed.

"Yeah..." I said slowly.

"Fine as in good or fine as in bad?" Trix asked eagerly. I looked away not wanting to reveal anything...or answer because the answer is: I don't know.

I thought we were good. However, I haven't felt good in a while. Even when I'm kissing him I can't keep my thoughts from running rampant. When you're kissing someone shouldn't your only thoughts be about how good the person is making you feel, how you want to return the favor? It's not like I'm uncomfortable with what we are doing I've done those kind of things before. Frostee doesn't run through my mind as much as Rock does and it makes me feel guilty. I feel guilty even when all I'm doing is sitting next to Rock in chemistry. It's not like I told him to or he did it on his own. He was told to by Professor Clark. I feel guilty because I like being close to Rock. However I also like being close to Frostee. I like kissing Frostee. I like Frostee. I don't love Frostee.

Thankfully, I didn't need to answer Bellatrix because our time was up and I needed to get to class. I darted off and I know they noticed I was uncomfortable. In the moment I didn't care I was letting my emotions show. It's okay if I'm transparent sometimes...right?

***Flashback***

"Hey, mom." I answered my phone. I turned away from Kayla even though I didn't feel comfortable with my back to her.

"I'm on my way home." That is all she said.

"Okay...and?" I asked knowing there has to be more to this phone call.

"And..." I heard my mom's voice shake.

"Mom what is it?" I glanced back at Kayla who looked more than irritated.

"It's your dad." My heart dropped.

"W-What?" I asphyxiated.

"I'll see you soon." The line went dead.

Kayla calling my name was an echo in the background and the room turned blurry. The sound of my phone dropping to the floor was white noise.