She is Not Who You Thought She Was

Chapter 82/Thomas.

During dinner, I faked a smile and made polite chit-chat like I had planned. Breaking was not part of the plan, but my mother knew that was the endgame even from the start.

"She has always excelled in science subjects." My mother started pulling the conversation towards the real reason we were here together.

"Yes, I was impressed when I read her transcript." Nico glanced at me and I took a sip of my water. "Her scores on her last test were even more impressive. With the extra load at that." I froze and turned to him.

"Extra load?" My mother looked between the two of us.

Those stupid tutor sessions were in exchange for my mom not finding out about skipping class and also getting me out of school suspension. It was his idea and he just let it slip.

"Oh yes, she-"

"I volunteered to tutor some students for extra credit." I interrupted Rivera so he would shut his hole.

"Oh, that's excellent." Blair beamed and I gave Rivera a secret smile and he gave me one in return.

"Yes, she is quite extraordinary." Rivera smirked and I held in my smile looking up at him through my lashes. He wasn't talking about my book smarts. My street smarts are what impresses him.

"I think that moving her up is an excellent idea." My mother dazzled at Rivera. Nico turned to Blair and it seemed like her smile affected him and he smiled too.

"I thought the same as well." Nico then turned to me. I took a small breath not to reveal that I was having a difficult time controlling my facial expression at the moment.

"Why don't you reconsider honey?" My mother said it as a question...but it wasn't. She only phrased it as a question for the audience. I stared at her and turned to see Rivera smiling at her, He smiled at her as if he was entranced by her beauty.

He likes her, doesn't he?

"It wouldn't be such a bad idea." I exhaled. "I'll think it over once more." To Principal Rivera, it was a maybe. However to my mother...it was a 'You win. I'll do it.'

***

"You weren't at the drag strip last night?" Rock asked as we sat down on his bed.

"Yeah." That is all I replied with.

I'm tired. Tired from this week. Still trying to recuperate from last weekend and am exhausted from the unwavering position I was put in.

"What happened?" He asked. I looked up at him and he stared down at me. Worry was written in his eyes...again. He has been wearing that expression while looking at me too much lately. Rock was not asking what happened to me not showing up to the tracks. He knew something happened that was completely unrelated to everything else.

"It's just...my mom invited Rivera over for dinner so I had no choice but to accept moving up to the 103 chem class." I blurted out too tired to avoid his question.

"You were offered too?" My head snapped to Rock's.

"You too?" Rock nodded staring at his pencil and fiddling with the tip of it with his fingers. Something he's never done before. Usually fiddling with something you have in your hands is a neurotic response. "What did you say?" I asked him eagerly even though he seemed very deep in thought at the moment.

"Um... just that I'd have to think it over." Rock bit his bottom lip and my eyes widened at the sexual action. I turned away quickly my cheeks heating up.

It wasn't meant to be sexual Scarlett get your mind out of the gutter. The sound of my phone ringing made my heart skip a beat. I let out a breath and pulled it out. Frostee's name appeared on the screen and I glanced up at Rock. He stared at the screen and I let it ring as he moved his hazel eyes to connect with my frozen blue eyes.

Was he waiting for me to answer it? Or decline it?

"One second." I stood up and escaped into Rock's bathroom. I answered the call and put it up to my ear wincing before I greeted him.

"Hey Frostee I'm a little busy right now...Can I call you back later." I said it more of a statement than a question.

"Oh...yeah that's fine babe." He replied. He didn't sound disappointed or annoyed.

"I'll call you later. Bye blue." I hung up quickly.

I sighed loudly after I put my phone back in my pocket. I ran a hand through my hair and turned to face the mirror. I stared at myself and then face-palmed myself.

"What the fuck am I doing?" I whispered to myself.

I can't keep on doing this anymore. I just hung up on my boyfriend because I am ten feet away from a man who makes my kitty cry with just a look. It's not just sexual desire with Rock either. It's how he makes me feel, how he can pull every word out of me that I would never utter to any other person. His presence makes me feel safe yet I am dating someone else I feel the need to keep my guard up around.Which forces me to be stiff around Rock. I don't like having to hold myself back around him. I know it is uncomfortable for him as well. I can't do this to them anymore. I have to make a decision. To be with Frostee or...be friends with Rock. Because that is the most I can be to Rock, a friend.

***

"Is Flora home?" I asked Rock as he followed me outside his bedroom.

"Yeah I think she's in her room." Rock pointed across the hall.

"Okay, I'm...going to say hi. I'll see you Monday." I gave him a wave. Rock raised an eyebrow for a moment then gave me a nod backing up into his room.

I knocked twice before the door opened.

"Hey!" Flora's bubbles already attacking me.

"Hey, I just finished Professor Clark's packet with Rock." I explained as she already invited me inside her room.

"Yeah, I heard him about to walk you out. What's up?" She asked turning her vintage stereo down and sitting down on top of her bed and using the back of her legs as a seat.

"Uh yeah I just. I wanted to talk about..." I paused before saying his name, "Thomas." Flora stopped moving, titled her head, and looked away then back at me waiting for me to elaborate. "I...I'm not sure how I feel about him." I spoke honestly. Flora smiled softly she pulled me down on the bed with both hands and I was forced to sit next to her.

"Now as you know I've never really dated anyone before," Flora shook her head softly as she kept a hold of my hands, "but in my own experience and in my opinion, if you don't know how you feel about someone, it is because the feelings are too strong...or is it because there are no feelings at all?"

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