She is Not Who You Thought She Was

Chapter 69/For Him?

"What's my problem?" Is he seriously asking me that like he doesn't know? "You are! You're my problem." My eyebrows stitched together in anger.

"Me? You are the one that barged in here without knocki-"

"You think I'm upset about that?" I laughed again. "I'm pissed at you for what you said in front of Frostee and I." I shook my head at him for acting so stupid.

"Why?" He said challengingly. "It was all true." He stepped closer to me. "You'd really ruin your grades for him?" He asked me like I was a stupid lovestruck teenager. Maybe I am. Maybe I love him. I don't know. My mind is clouded with rage I don't know what to think.

"You don't get it." I shook my head disappointed in him. "You are such a hypocrite." I muttered.

"I'm the hypocrite?" Rock looked at me anger rising in him. "You are the one who got pissed at me for showing Lydia the smallest amount of attention. I talked to her once outside of our tutoring sessions and now you think we are fucking!"

"Right after that, you acted like you can just tell me what to do. Right in front of my boyfriend!" A lump formed in my throat and I tried my best to swallow it away. It's not working. Fuck.

"What is wrong with you!?" He shouted. I've never seen Rock pissed off, but shit he was fucking scary.

I held in the tears. I can't let him see me cry. Not again. Not because of this. 

"What are you talking about!?" I run a hand through my hair pulling at the ends. Hard. This is so frustrating. We have argued and bickered before, but we have never actually fought before. We have never shouted and expressed our emotions so rawly. "I haven't done anything wrong." My face was stone.

"You are dating Frostee...so stop acting like we can be friends." My heart dropped. The silence was deafening. "I thought I could handle it." Rock whispered. "I can't."

I couldn't mask it anymore... my face broke and the tears spilled out of me.

"You can't handle it? You can't be around me if I'm dating him?" Rock shook his head at me slowly. The tears ran down my face, but my voice wasn't shaking. It was steady. "So what does that mean?" I asked, but he didn't answer. He turned around sighing over and over. "We can't be friends? We are just back to partners?" I asked. He needs to tell me what he wants I can't try to read him this time. Not this time...not ever again. This entire conversation proved that I am unable to know what Rock Chase is thinking.

"We were never friends Scarlett." He turned back to face me. His face had also fallen, but his eyes and cheeks were dry, unlike mine. "We aren't capable of being friends." I pressed my lips into a line and rubbed them together tasting the salty tears that spilled on them. I tried to nod, but there was barely any movement.

"Okay." I choked out.

I left without his guidance this time. Out the door, across the street, and into my home.

"We were never friends Scarlett. We aren't capable of being friends." I repeated each word and they were a dagger in my heart. It hurt, but I needed to hear myself say it.

Once I shut the door to my bathroom and got into the steaming hot shower. All I did was stand in the stream of water and got out once it turned cold.

***

Saturday morning I got dressed to head to the gym. I'm not changing my membership just because Black Velvet does some shady stuff in the back. The chance of running into Rock was slim and the chance of running into José seemed even slimer, but something was telling me last weekend wasn't the last time I'd be seeing him.

The conclusion that I came to about my argument with Rock is that he and I can't be friends because I am dating the son of the mother who had an affair with his father. When I was fighting with him I assumed it was because he was jealous, but he just can't stand the fact that I was okay with the adultery Frostee's mother committed. Rock and I finished the rest of the packets for the week at school and we didn't speak unless needed to. He no longer waited for me in C hallway either. However, I stopped seeing Lydia linger outside of Mr. Clark's classroom too. Roxy and Bellatrix asked me what changed and I only told them that Rock and I are only partners and thankfully they didn't press it any further.

I finished my cool-down run on the treadmill when I got a text from Frostee. He had a project to finish at school so we didn't hang out until the tracks the night before.

11:55 A.M.

Frostee- Dinner tonight?

Me- Absolutely

Me- Want to come to Bellatrix's art show after? I promised her I'd be there

Frostee- Sounds good

Frostee- I'll pick you up around 4:30

Me- K

When I got home my mom was at the kitchen table having lunch. I swear this woman doesn't even sleep in on the weekends.

"Hey honey how was the gym?" She asked as she popped a potato chip in her mouth.

"Fine." I answered as I made my protein shake.

"Got any plans for the weekend?" She wasn't hovering just talking as she ate.

"Yeah, I'm going to dinner with uh...Thomas. Then my friend's art show after."

"Thomas...is that the boy who took you out last weekend?" She asked and took a drink from her soda can.

"Yeah, he is actually Flora and Rock's cousin."

"Oh...does he go to school with you guys?"

"No, he goes to a private school across town." I mention downing my shake. "You have any plans?" I asked hoping to move the topic off me.

"You know just some laundry." She chuckled lightly.

"Exciting." I said sarcastically then left to shower.

12:28 P.M.

Flora- Mani and Pedi's tomorrow. Nonnegotiable.

Me- Only if we get lunch after

Flora- duh

I grinned as I stripped for the shower.

As I prepared for our first official date my mind kept on wandering back to Flora's text. Dare I say I love hanging out with her and am falling in love with our friendship, but I can't help but think about how our friendship could or will affect my relationship with Rock. It's not like he is going to come along shopping or get nails done with us but they are twins. Charlotte and Clancy-Flora's best friends- said that Rock and Flora care too much about each other to keep secrets and they also said it also goes for everything. Does she already know what went down between Rock and me? If so wouldn't she feel the same way that Rock does about me? I guess I'll find out soon enough. I just wish I could go back and fix things.

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