Jiara - oneshots - part 1

story 22 - part 1

⚠️Trigger Warning: Suicide⚠️

A.N. Sorry this one is sad :(

Takes place after Season 2 - all the pogues are home from the island

Kiara's POV:

JJ and I started dating on the island and he was the most perfect boyfriend. He was loyal, protective, and strong. He also showed me his sweet, emotional, and passionate side. He was always so gentle with me, physically, mentally, and emotionally. We had been dating for five months and no one approved of the relationship.

I was known as, 'Maybank's girl' and it was supposed to be an insult, but it was one of the biggest compliments that I could receive. Since his dad left, he was living alone in the house which meant that I spent almost every single night with him. He hated to be alone and I loved being with him.

We were inseparable. He was my favorite person in the whole world. We were laying in his bed one night and he asked, "Have you decided what you want to do after gradutation?"

"I thought I was always going to go to college until I started dating you. Now, I have no idea. I just want to live with you and never leave you. I want to marry you and have your babies and live here on the cut and raise little pogue babies. We'll teach them how to surf and all the important things in live."

"You really wanna live on the cut and have babies with me?" JJ asked surprised

"I couldn't imagine anything else..." I said kissing him

Our relationship went on like this for a few weeks. We had just graduated high school and everything was going perfect. Until, we still had to pay for JJ's restitution, he found my college acceptance letters that I was hiding because I didn't want to go and he felt like he was holding me back. It caused this his argument and he kicked me out of his house. I left in tears and went to my parent's. I couldn't sleep that night and I went back to JJ's.

He was drunk and in a mood. He yelled at me to leave and I refused. I got him into bed and I laid down in his arms.

"JJ, I love you so much. I've never loved someone like this before or had someone love me the way that you do. Part of me has secretly always wanted the kook lifestyle as it was safe. In high school, I could do all the pogue shit and still have my kook parents to fall back on in case something went wrong. I realize that being a kook just means having money. My parents are kooks and look at how they treat me. I don't want that. I want to be as happy and carefree as you are. I'm not going to college because of you, I'm not going because I don't want to. You don't hold me back, you push me out of my comfort zone and I love you for that."

JJ was too drunk to comprehend all this but he told me he loved me and he fell asleep. We woke up the next morning and Luke was home. JJ was freaking out and apparently Luke came back here as he got in some serious trouble on his trip. Him and JJ were in an intense fist fight. I tried to split the two up, but I was unsuccessful. I was now yanking Luke off of his son. JJ was laying on the floor, gasping for air.

"Get out, Kie!" He yelled for my safety but I was not leaving him like this

Luke literally just walked to the couch and looked at me and passed out. JJ got up and he went to his room and he locked the door and put his dresser in front of it. He told me to leave, but I followed him into the room. He turned his radio on super loud and he was panicing. I've never seen him like this before. I hugged him and he started kissing me. He was a complete mess right now and I was willing to do anything to help so we had sex. He was still super sweet but I could tell how upset he was by how forceful and agressive he was but the sex was amazing.

We got dressed and JJ told me that I needed to go home as it wasn't safe here for me anymore and that he would talk to me tomorrow morning. I didn't want to leave him but he seemed to be doing much better. He held me in his arms and he said, "I love you so much, Kie. You are my everything and I will love you forever."

"Forever and always... I love you, J.." I said kissing him as I crawled out his window in his favorite sweatshirt

I went to my parents house and it was late now as I had spent the whole day with JJ. I woke up the next morning and I haven't heard from him which was weird but I figured he was sleeping in after the fight yesterday.

I got a called from John B telling me to get to JJ's house now and it was important. I sped the whole way there and when I got there, I saw an ambulance out front with three cop cars. They were all down by the water. I ran to John B and Pope.

"Where is he? What happened?" I asked crying as I knew something was seriously wrong

"I found him passed out on by the water with an empty bottle of pills, weed, and lots of empty beer cans. He was holding this..." John B said handing me a piece of paper

On the outside it said: Kie (don't you fucking dare read this if you are anyone else) and I opened it and JJ wrote:

Kie,

I'm sorry for what I did. I didn't want to but it seemed like the only way out of this hell. Between the restitution, the fees for ruining the phantom, my dad coming home and having drug dealers show up here all the time, it was what I did. I know it was stupid but I can't change it now. I just want you to know that this has nothing to do with you (or the pogues, please tell them that). I didn't want to leave you because I love you. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me.

I never got to tell you these things in person so I'm telling you know. These secrets must be kept secret or I will come back and haunt you. The J's in my name stand for Jackson James. I've been secretly talking to my mom. She found me and she is living in Montana in the moutains. She left me with my father having no idea he would ever abuse me. She said he was the most loving father towards me and I'm guessing he resented me because she left. Her name is Jessica Maybank and her number is in my phone. Please tell her that I am sorry and that I also didn't do this because of her. You'd like her, she's strong, beautiful, and loves the outdoors, just like you do.

As far as my dad, I know this is fucked up but I love him. He's my dad and before it was bad, it was good when I was younger. But he's still a fucking piece of shit who beat the hell out me for fourteen years and his ass should rot in jail. This house is a place where bad things happen and there are no happy endings. It deserves a new family who is loving and can show this house what a real family should be. Since my dad is going to jail, the house and everything inside of it is yours to sell. Use the money, go to college, meet some perfect boy and have kids. Please move on because you've always deserved so much more than me.

Being your bestfriend and your boyfriend was the biggest honor of my life. All the girls before you meant nothing, they were a distraction because I was so in love with you. You are the most amazing person in the whole world. I'm so sorry for leaving you alone, but you will be okay without me, I promise. I love you so fucking much, Kie.

Until we meet again,

JJ

p.s. I don't want to see you dead anytime soon. Life a very long and happy life.

I was bawling as I read the letter. The ambulance left with JJ and John B and Pope both were holding me and crying. Sarah and Cleo showed up and they creid too. I walked away from everyone and I threw up from crying so hard. Luke was arrested and I went inside alone. I was so delusional. I went to his bedroom and it looked the same way I left it last night. I put on one of his sweatshirts and I laid down in his bed and that still smelled just like him.

There was a small memorial service for JJ. My parents came and they saw how heartbroken I was. The pogues and I spent the night at the chateau hanging out. They didn't want to leave me alone. I was broken and laid in bed for a whole month. Then I made the discovery that I was pregnant.

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