"Amia you good?" Stokes asked me making the others look at me once Jahseh got out to pay for gas.
I looked around a little and nodded. It wasn't like they'd do anything to help anyway. I've noticed no one in this group really stands up to Jahseh. They'll say something and once he responds how he wants to they drop it. But they tell me to stand up to him.
"You sure you good?" Danny asked and I still only nodded.
I'm not sure where we are going but we're already out of broward and Jahseh grabbed some of my hygiene products before we left so I'm sure we'll be gone for awhile.
I sat back in my seat that was beside Ming again, all the way in the back, looking out the window. I seen Jahseh coming out the store making me sigh.
He had bags in his hand that he dropped in the car before he started to pump the gas right next to my window.
I twisted my lips and looked away from him, into my lap which made him tap my window. I looked up at him and raised an eyebrow.
He put a thumb up and I nodded before looking back down.
Nope I'm not okay, I want to go home. I tried to stay home but he doesn't care. He didn't even tell me we were actually leaving, he just made it seem like he was going home real quick and wanted me to chill with him.
We continued down the highway as the boys started freestyling and I stayed on my phone. I felt alone and hurt, I wanted to be in my bed, crying.
Usually after he hits me he gives me time alone, but this time he kept me near him and everyone else which made my anxiety skyrocket.
I didn't have the time to decompress I just was put out there after getting used as a punching bag.
I sighed and put my head against the window, starting to fall asleep because why not? I have nothing else to do in this car.
I can't even talk to the person sitting beside me. Not that I'd want to. He's almost got my hit before and Stokeley has got me hit and so has Danny so I had no need to talk to them. I don't even understand why I'm allowed in this car with them.
When I woke up the car was stopped and no one was in the car but we were in front of a house letting me know where we were. I didn't try to get out of the car because I don't need to be in there anyway.
I sighed and picked up my phone to entertain myself but it was dead making me huff. I just really would like to go now. I got up and started to look around the car for a charger, not being able to find one.
"Ugh" I groaned sitting back down.
Since I was now sitting in the front I seen the bag of snacks on the floor and picked them up, starting to eat a bag of chips.
I mean I haven't ate since way earlier today, hope who they belong to don't get mad. Just as I started eating them Danny opened the door making us scare each other but I didn't say anything.
"Um those are mine but you can eat them, just don't let Jahseh catch you because he knows they're mine" he nervously chuckled and I sighed and nodded, putting them back.
Take no chances with anything.
He shook his head "why you put up with his shit? I mean all you girls are stupid in a way, no offense but yeah. My girl just now breaking up with me after she caught me cheating so many times" he told me making me raise an eyebrow.
He shrugged "she called me today saying she'll give me another chance, I never put my hands on her though" he told me.
"Jahseh doesn't always hit me but this I would definitely get hit for" I told him, pointing between me and him.
"The fact that he does should be enough for you to leave" he told me making me suck my teeth.
"I can't leave him, literally impossible he knows where I live and my mom likes him so she'll let him in" I told him and he nodded.
"She knows he be hitting you?" He asked and I nodded.
"Yeah she says if I listen he'll stop" I told him and he shook his head.
"Your pops must've been abusive cause ain't no way" he shook his head.
When I was about to speak he spoke for me "Shh Jahseh is coming" he told me and I nodded and looked down at my lap.
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