Following Jahseh into his house it was dark, making me stay back a little, trying to make sure I could see his frame before he turned on the lights.
He went into the living room and I just followed. When we first sat it was silent for a minute before he took a deep breath.
"I just wanted to apologize to you Amia about everything I've done to you. It was selfish of me to try and make you the perfect girl for me knowing that you didn't want that. It was wrong of me to put my hands on you when you were being yourself" he spoke making me look up at him to see if he was serious and he looked like he was, even crying a little.
"I know I fucked up bad but I really need you Amia, I want you to be with me again" he told me which made my stomach loudly rumble.
I had found my own place now but I know my mom still would say no. My body is saying no but it's like I just can't get rid of this attachment that I have to him.
"I don't know" I told him making him nod.
"What's bothering you about it?" He asked.
"I don't know, a lot of things."
"Tell me" he spoke, sitting back on the chair.
"My mom doesn't want me with you and I don't know if you'll just still do it once we're together again. I can't handle going through all of that again" I told him and he nodded.
"I understand, we don't have to jump right into it I'm just telling you how I feel now so that you already know" he told me making me nod before it got silent for a little.
"So how's everything been?" He asked me breaking the silence as he stood up.
I watched him walk into the kitchen so I still spoke because I knew he could hear me.
"Um I'm in school and I have a new friend" I told him with a smile making him nod and smile.
"What's their name?" He asked me.
"Her names Chloe, she's really sweet but not so much book smart" I told him and he nodded.
"And how's school going?" He asked me and I shrugged.
"It's okay, I just don't know if this is what I want to do with my life" I told him as he walked up to me.
"What you mean? What happened?" He asked and I shrugged again.
"Just certain stuff we talk about in class makes me feel like I'm not going to like this as a profession for long" I told him and he nodded.
"You got anything else in mind?" He asked and I shook my head.
"You talk to your mom about not liking it?"
I shook my head again "she'll be mad at me" I told him making him sigh.
"You're sitting in my house, you don't think she'll be mad about that?" He asked me and I shook my head.
"I was at a party remember?" I asked and he nodded.
"Yeah but I want you to stay here" he told me and I shook my head.
"I got to go home" I told him making him smack his teeth.
"Okay, I'll take you" he told me making me realize everything.
Chloe drove us here so my car was at my house so if he took me to my moms house then I'd be stuck there until about 8 in the morning and my class is at 8.
Well fuck.
"You can bring clothes if you want."
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