I decided to just go to sleep on it because there's no way he blocked me but when I woke up it was the first thing on my mind.
I text him only a heart to see and it didn't deliver either making me huff.
What did I do? All because I couldn't give him an answer than he cuts me off that quick?! That's not fair.
"Why doesn't he want to talk to me?" I questioned myself out loud.
I sighed and put my head in my hands beginning to cry. I'm beginning to get overwhelmed. There's too much happening to me and once and no one to listen to me.
Maybe I should just stop trying, trying to live. I'm tired of everything, things were never this bad before I decided to start going out. That's what I should do, stay in forever. I'm safer in the house.
I looked at my phone again to see that my messages to Jahseh still hadn't delivered before just deleting his contact and texting one of my other dudes.
I was talking to another dude before I ran into Jahseh, 2 more, but I got bored with them. Now I need the attention.
After I did that I walked into my bathroom. I could still see a little bit of my blood on the floor making me shake my head before cleaning it up.
After I looked in the mirror seeing my hair was everywhere and my face showed signs of me crying. I pulled my hair up and started to wash my face.
I stared at myself for a little realizing that the bruises on my neck were still visible.
"Amia!" I heard my mom yell upstairs.
"You can go up, I think she's sleep" she told someone before I heard walking upstairs.
I watched from the bathroom as Jahseh walked in my room making me furrow my eyebrows.
"Why you looking at me like that?" He asked me.
"Because you left me last night and blocked me" I told him and he just looked away from me.
"You hurt my feelings" I told him and he only sat on my bed and looked over at me.
"Come here" he told me and something about the way he said it made me uneasy but I walked to him anyway.
I sat beside him and looked at my hands.
"Don't play with me" he told me which confused me.
"Huh?" I spoke confused but then I seen my phone in his hand.
I had a text back from Jordan.
"He told me y'all been talking, since when?" He asked.
I almost answered but stopped myself "you blocked me. Why do you care?" I asked making him tilt his head.
"When did you start talking to him?" He asked again.
"I've been trying my hardest to be with you and you were talking to a nigga who has girls lined up behind my back?" He asked and I shook my head.
"No Jahseh-" I started but he cut me off.
"Anything that you say better not be a lie" he told me and I nodded.
He's scaring me right now. I wouldn't dare lie to him.
"I was just bored so I texted him. We were never "talking" it was always I was bored so I was texting him" I told him the truth.
He nodded "well that's the end of all that shit. Him and whoever, you're my girlfriend now" he told me making me raise an eyebrow.
"I-" I paused and looked up at him.
"Okay" I nodded.
He's not giving me much of a choice but I don't too much want one. I like him and I like when he tells me what to do.
"So block them" he told me, handing me my phone.
"You block yours" I told him, tucking my phone, under me.
He gave me his unlocked phone letting me see exactly what was in.
"That been done" he told me.
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