"How was the session?" My mom asked as we walked outside and I shrugged.
"The same as usual" I told her and she sighed but nodded.
We sat in the car but I didn't really plan on talking today I'd been doing so all day and I was tired.
My anxiety was beginning to skyrocket and my feelings hurt all because of this session. Maybe I shouldn't go to therapy.
"So mija I have dinner cooked and I've bring you home but I have to go, I'll see you tomorrow morning" she told me, parking in front of the house.
I nodded and got out.
"I love you" she spoke and I nodded.
"I love you too" I told her before she pulled off.
I went up the 3 stairs on the front porch before getting to unlock the door.
"Aye Amia" Someone called making me turn around quick.
When I looked back I seen Danny making me stay put. I hadn't talked to him in awhile and since me and Jahseh weren't together anymore I wouldn't get hit for this.
He walked up to me before sighing "Jahseh sent me to tell you that he's back in town and wants you to come over" he told me and I shook my head.
I want so bad to say okay right now but I know I shouldn't.
"Why didn't he text me?" I asked and Danny shrugged.
"Well tell him I said no" I spoke before going into the house and closing the door.
No? You just said no Amia. Don't you miss him? You've been texting him repeatedly. But does he even love me if he sent someone else.
Why can't he come get me? He doesn't care about me anymore that's why. The restraining order isn't going to stop him, he's been here before so what's the reason.
I decided to text him about it.
If you want me come get me Read 11:30 am
I was surprised to see he actually read the message because the other ones had only been delivered.
Don't play with me Amia Delivered
I'm otw Delivered
My heart raced as I looked at the message. I didn't think he'd actually answer or actually come. Well fuck, I've fucked up.
Don't come here Read 11:32 am
He read the message but didn't answer making me let out a shaky breath. I haven't seen Jahseh in a total of 3 months. Three of the longest months of my life.
I missed him a lot and dreamed of seeing him but I know I'm not supposed to, I shouldn't.
Hearing the door I stood up and walked downstairs to look through the peephole and see Jahseh making my breathing hitch.
"Go away Seh, I'm not supposed to see you" I told him.
"But you want to so open the door" he told me and I shook my head.
"No, go home or wherever" I spoke hearing him suck his teeth.
"Amia open the door" he told me again making me sigh and open the door for him.
He stepped in which made me step back. Jesus he's so beautiful and I look a mess right now.
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