"I don't see you anymore mija" my mom complained from over the phone.
I didn't have any words because she was right I was always with Jahseh. I go with him to the studio and home and to shows. It doesn't bother me now like it did when he just wanted me to and forced me to go.
"I'm sorry mamí, you want me to come home?" I asked and I heard her sigh through the phone.
"No it's okay don't rush home right now because I've gotta be work in a couple hours anyway but I'm off on Wednesday and I want you here all day" she told me and I nodded.
"Okay."
"Okay I love you and tell Jahseh I said hi" she spoke and I nodded.
"I love you too" I replied before she hung up.
"She want you home?" Jahseh asked, running his fingers through my hair.
"Not today but she said Wednesday I can't go anywhere" I warned him and he smacked his teeth.
"Well damn okay, guess I gotta learn to share better" he chuckled to himself before standing up.
I shrugged because I know it's not fully him, I don't want to leave his side.
"She said hi too" I told him and he nodded.
"I thought she hated me" he admitted with a chuckle making me scrunch up my face.
"What? Why?" I asked him and she shrugged.
"I don't eat dinner with y'all no more and she told you you'd have to break up with me" he answered and I nodded.
"I don't think she hates you. She barely cooks anymore and she had a good reason for the other one" I told him.
Ever since I got the alone time I wanted I haven't wanted it again. I don't know I just like to stay under Jahseh no matter what. Sometimes it can be handful because of dudes but I have no new bruises so that's a plus.
I usually just shut down when talked to because I truthfully don't even remember how to keep a casual conversation anymore. It's so awkward trying to talk to new people anyway so I just don't and it seems to help a lot.
"I'm bout to go get your name tatted" Jahseh spoke which made me snap my head over at him to see him in the mirror.
I guess he was looking at the spot he wanted it in. He already puts our situations or something about me in almost every song right now.
"No" I told him which made him look at me.
"No?" He asked and I nodded.
"That's bad luck Jahseh" I told him and he scrunched up his face.
"Is it really?" He asked and I nodded again.
"Okay well I'm going to get a symbol of you" he told me and I nodded.
I hope he doesn't think I'm getting any tattoos, I've seen people get it done and it just looks so painful.
"What symbol?" I asked and he looked over at me before looking like he was thinking.
Once he looked like it clicked he chuckled to himself "I got it, it's a surprise for you though" he told me making me smack my teeth.
"But I already asked" I told him and he shrugged.
"And you won't know the answer until after it's done" he told me making me roll my eyes.
"Okay so when are you going to get it?" I asked him and he shrugged.
"Might go tomorrow, fuck it."
"I can come?" I asked and he nodded before looking at me confused.
"Why you never ask to go home now?" He asked and I shrugged.
"I don't want to, I want to be with you."
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