Ever since I've read his notes I've started to pay more attention to the things he does. Trying to understand what his thought process behind it is.
Even though I've been around everyone and of course people have talked to me. Taking my own notes on Jahseh keeps me unharmed.
Even though I've remained unharmed physically doesn't mean he's not still messing with me mentally. He unsealed the windows and took the pin lock but still doesn't want me leaving him.
I still don't have a phone.
"Still quiet" the girl spoke, sitting next me.
I still don't know her name I just know that when the boy with 14 tattoo comes, who I found out is Trippie, she comes. They only come when everyone is sitting at someone's house chilling.
I nodded before giggling "maybe I just don't like to talk" I told her and she shook her head at me.
"You're too pretty for that" she told me making me raise an eyebrow.
"To not talk?" I asked her and she nodded.
"It makes you seem stuck up, if I didn't come talk to you I'd think you still were" she told me and I shrugged.
"If that's how people think that's just how they'll think" I told her and she shrugged.
"What's your name?" I asked her.
"Jasmine" she answered making me nod.
"What's yours?"
"Amia" I answered and she gasped making me look at her weirdly.
"What?" I asked her.
"Didn't he hit you?" She asked making me furrow my eyebrows.
How the fuck she know that?
"What? No" I told her, scrunching you my face.
She shrugged "I heard him and Ski talking about it one day, maybe it was a different girl" she told me making me nod.
"What did they say?" I asked, trying not to make it seem like it bothered me.
"X said he missed her then Ski said it's his fault cause he fucked up by hitting her. Then X said he had to because she wasn't listening" she explained and I nodded.
"Wow" I spoke, trying not to make it seem obvious.
"So does he hit you?" She asked md and I shook my head making her nod.
"Hmm Trippie scares me sometimes when he's upset but he's never hit me either. He just has a bad temper" she told me and I nodded.
I got silent for a minute, thinking.
There's no way everyone in here knows what Jahseh does and doesn't say anything. They're either scared of him just as much as me or they all do it too.
Stokeley doesn't look like he'd hit a girl but I do think he doesn't want a fight with Jahseh unless he had to. Him, Ming and Dj stay away from that.
Danny is on the abusive spectrum along with Trippie as we've just learned.
I'm not too sure about the others because I haven't really seen their reaction to the things he does.
"You okay?" Jasmine asked me making me snap back and nod.
"Yeah just taking in what you told me" I told her and she nodded.
"Yeah if I was you I'd be careful" she told me and I nodded.
I've been being careful for the most part. No new bruises, I can almost wear my own shirts again. But I'm going to push it today, because I want to be let go.
I know I'll end up hit but that's the point, so I can run.
After the event I remained quiet, going to the house with Jahseh. I know if I don't say anything all night it'll piss him off.
"What did you two talk about?" He asked me as we walked in the house but I ignored him, going upstairs.
"Amia I know you fucking hear me!" He yelled, making his way behind me.
I turned around and looked up at him, making him stop in his tracks.
"Are all your friends abusive Jahseh or just you?" I asked him making him tilt his head at me.
"Don't you start this bullshit with me" he spoke making me roll my eyes.
"I'm curious Jahseh, tell me" I spoke up making him chuckle at me.
"I don't even fucking abuse you" he told me me making me scoff.
"Yeah okay" I spoke, seeing him walk into the room.
I followed behind him and sat on the bed while he sighed and went into the bathroom.
"Leave me alone Amia, I'm trying to calm down" he told me and I nodded, laying back.
I stayed on the bed until the shower water had been running for 5 minutes then I got up and tiptoed downstairs making sure that I closed the door as lightly as possible before running as fast as I could.
It's only a 20-25 minute walk to my mothers house so hopefully I make it there fast enough.
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