I looked over Jahseh, watching his body language as I sat across from him. I'm not sure what he'd seen on his phone but whatever it was had obviously pissed him off.
He looked up at me for a moment making my eyes widen a little but I didn't want to draw too much attention to myself.
He stood up and walked out the room to go upstairs, giving me a look that told me to follow him but I was afraid to.
I mean everyone was in the living room, he wouldn't do that in front everybody right?
"I'll be back" I told Jasmine and she nodded.
I got up and went upstairs, going into his room I seen him sitting on the bed.
"Close the door" he told me making me nod and close it.
"Your mom's house got cameras?" He asked me, looking up at me.
I shrugged "last I remember, no" I told him and he nodded.
"Well it does" he told me making me scrunch up my face.
"Um why does it matter?" I asked him, trying my best not to sound rude.
"She gave tmz a tape of what happened when I went to get you, soon the police will be involved and they already have pictures and a partial statement from you correct?" He asked and nodded before chuckling.
"Well fuck."
I just stared at him for a minute before looking down at my feet. I don't know what to say honestly, I'm surprised my mom even did anything to stand up for me.
"Why you not saying anything?" He asked me making me shrug.
"I don't have anything to say" I told him and he nodded, standing up.
I watched him, trying to figure out what his next move would be but I couldn't tell. He didn't look necessarily angry but I don't know.
He stood in front me but it didn't scare me so I was really confused before he sighed to speak.
"This means we'll be split up" he told me, pulling me into a tight hug.
I just let him, my head landing on his chest to hear how fast he was breathing before I heard a sniffle making me look up.
He was crying, actually crying.
It made me emotional looking at it so I broke out of the hug and wiped his tears for him "why are you crying?" I asked him.
I mean this isn't the first time we've been split up, he didn't act like this the first time.
"Because man I fucked up and they're taking you again" he told me before he threw the lamp down from the dresser making me jump.
"I can't do this shit again! I'm going to lose my fucking mind!" He yelled out, beginning to break shit.
"Jahseh calm down" I told him, too afraid to move.
He shook his head and started to cry again before sitting himself against the wall. I watched for a minute, still trying to make sure it was safe to walk up to him just to see he was having a panic attack.
A very silent panic attack.
I made my way towards him after seeing the signs and sat beside him, putting his head in my lap.
I moved his hair out of his face before wiping his tears again.
I don't know why I'm comforting him but I can't just watch him go through it like this. Even though he's abused me during my panic attacks I just can't watch him.
I rubbed my hands in his hair before his breathing started to calm down.
"I don't want you to leave" he told me and I nodded.
"It's not up to us" I reminded him and he nodded, sighing.
"If I do get you back somehow I won't be like this anymore."
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