Obsessed

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I sat back in my car as I watched Amia cross the street. I don't like her by herself but she loved being alone. Sometimes it was bad for me to intervene and I was starting to realize that.

It was fine, as long as she didn't know I was watching her she wouldn't have any feeling towards it.

As long as she didn't start being friendly with dudes it was even better.

I sighed because I lost sight of her so I started the car back up and moved closer to her neighborhood to see her going in the house so I nodded and pulled off, going back to my place.

I wanted to control her because she's mine, I don't want her out here just doing anything but I was beginning to get too controlling, she was starting to pull away from me.

Until I could get her away completely I couldn't do that anymore. Her moms trying to take her away from me.

"Where you been all day?" Stokeley asked as I walked in the house.

"Running errands" I lied with a shrug before going upstairs.

Trying to keep myself away from her was beginning to get boring and it had only been day 2. I was beginning to feel alone and like she'd never loved me anyway.

Maybe she didn't, I do hit her. But she still told me she loved me multiple times, if she didn't mean she shouldn't have said it.

I sighed as I laid back on my bed, trying to calm myself down before I start bothering her and creating shit.

I can't help it she's just so beautiful I feel like too many guys want her, once she talks to those guys I hit her which takes away from her beauty, for them. Not to me, to me she's even more beautiful afterwards because she's vulnerable.

She becomes sweet and quiet, she really likes to be held afterwards and I like to hold her.

I know I probably shouldn't hit her but after all of her crying and cutting herself off from me it works. It's when she starts to let people get in her head that we have to redo the cycle.

Every time I have to do the cycle again I do something that'll hurt her for a longer period of time so maybe she'll remember and she'll stop doing it. But every time I think she's got it the cycle repeats. This last time getting me in trouble.

I don't want her mom to try to break us up because I know my reaction wouldn't be well.

Update

7/7/2022

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