I finally got some sleep but waking up I could still tell my anxiety was still high because my chest was tight.
I sighed and sat up, getting this weird feeling. Looking over I seen Jahseh sitting at the edge of my bed.
I scrunched up my eyebrows and rubbed my eyes to try to understand.
"Mija you're up, breakfast is ready for you and I'm going to work" my mother came in, kissing my forehead.
I nodded and looked back over at Jahseh who was now looking at me.
"You two be good and don't be nasty in my house" she yelled as she walked out the house.
Once the door closed I sighed and got up from my bed.
"Did you do something with Stokeley last night?" He asked making me scrunch up my face.
"Jahseh please stop accusing me of being a ho" I spoke, turning around and looking at him.
"I just asking, it's just a little sus" he told me making me sigh.
"I wanted to go home and you wouldn't take me so when you fell asleep I got up and was going to walk home but Stokeley was already up and offered me a ride, I went home and he went wherever he was going. End of story" I told him and he nodded.
I walked past him and into the bathroom to start my day.
He's stressing me out so bad right now, did he really think I fucked Stokeley? That's crazy.
"I'm sorry for acting so crazy lately, I don't mean to offend you or scare you I'm just scared you'll violate my trust" he told me making me nod.
"I understand but if I haven't done anything before I don't understand why you're so scared now" I told him and he shrugged.
"Just trying to make sure you don't. I don't want you to embarrass me and I don't want you getting hurt anymore" he told me making me nod.
"I know I scared you last night, that's why I didn't want you to go home, I just wanted to hold you. I would never hurt you like that I was just trying to talk to you" he assured me and for some reason it made me start to cry.
Jahseh got up and started making his way to me which made me close myself off. He still uncrossed my arms and pulled me into him, letting me cry on his chest.
"I am really sorry baby, I didn't mean it" he told me as he held me closer.
I didn't really expect it to hurt me this much or cause me to break down like this. It must've really messed with me more than I knew.
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