Sex, Crϋe and Ratt 'N' Roll, A Ratt & Mӧtley Tale

Chapter 10- A Kiss of Insight (Mick Mars)

I never thought that I would find love or that love would find me....i could never have imagine starting way back in 1983 on that for me very fateful tour with Kiss that Paul, of all people would fall in love with me.... we'd nearly gotten kicked off the tour or would have if it weren't for Paul. He didn't judge me; I didn't judge him.... We changed each other for the better. All of my experiences with Paul, I could never have imagined.... like becoming a father for the first time, the fact that I can say that I am and because of my STAR it means so much more than I could ever say. For a time, things weren't easy for us, what with what Doc did and tried to do to Paul and the drama/bullshit with Simmons in the 80s. Just because of my world: Paul and our first daughter, Hope...just because I had them didn't mean I didn't notice from the get go or hear about the 'idiots' I can and did call family: Nikki, Vince and Tommy Lee. Nikki and Vince especially down the line would come to me and I and Paul would do all we could to help them, they will fucking need it with what is yet to come....Sex, Crϋe & Ratt 'N' Roll I tell ya....

Before we get to all that, come get a glimpse into the life of an Alien and his Starry-eyed mate....

A week or so roughly has passed since my daughter: Hope's birth, it now being January 17 and we are home, Paul is at the moment....sleeping, its late at night and it's a testament to how fucking tired he is, he didn't stir when I heard Hope's cries coming in over the baby monitor....which brings me to now, changing her diaper and I know she will need to have Paul feed her, shocked the hell out of both of us that she can get nourishment from Paul, but he and I have come to love it.

I murmur lowly to Hope, her auburn curls gleaming in the low light of her nursery...she gets it from my husband, the curls and I love it. Hope is fussing, no longer out right showing the lung power she's inherited from my husband, though no lie I love that.....

So the 'idiots' have hooked up with those guys from Ratt, I have my feelings about it all....trouble, trouble is coming for Vince and Nikki especially and I have gathered that from what Vince and Nikki have said or NOT said about Stephen Pearcy and Robbin Crosby. It's a bad feeling, and my heart already breaks for what I feel is coming....sometimes I really fucking hate being 'the alien' at least in cases like these.

I finish changing Hope's diaper, changing her outfit and I smooth back her curls...kissing her little forehead before picking her up and cradling her to my chest, and I feel tears spring to my eyes.

"Oh, my little Star Princess.... I still can't believe that you are HERE, that all this is real. I don't know where I'd be without you or your mother, who I still can't believe sometimes fell for me of all people. I love you sweet girl, more than you can ever know." Hope looks up at me eyes wide, and it's Paul I see as she coos. Gently rocking her in my arms.

"Believe it Mick, though I could say much the same that you fell for ME. And I love YOU and our daughter more than you could ever know." Paul is now at myside, eyeing me seriously...tears in his eyes, gazing at both me and our daughter.

"You should be resting, Paul.... you, are so tired....and I just wanted..." I will start to explain.

"I know you do Mick, and I am, and I will...you take care of everything and do so much for me everyday since we've met really....and besides..." Paul interrupts and then laughs, "If you'd noticed she's tugging at your shirt.... someone is hungry and I don't feed her soon she will show off those lungs she got from me."

I laugh at that, "I do believe you are right.... can't have that now, can we?" Paul slowly and carefully sits down, nursing cloth and all ready as I carefully hand him our daughter like I am handing him a holy relic as I kiss him loving the feel of him, before sitting beside him watching him feed Hope. "You look beautiful by the way." Paul blushes.

"Thanks to you, I FEEL like it." Paul responds quietly, as Hope continues to nurse. "You seem like you have something on your mind.... i know that look in your eyes Mick." I've NEVER had anyone be in tune with me like Paul, and I can never let this go...and I NEVER will.

I sigh heavily, "Vince...Nikki...Tommy, mainly Vince and Nikki.... I just have a bad feeling where it concerns those guys from Ratt. You know Stephen Pearcy and Robbin Crosby. From what Sixx and Vince have told me about each of those two...trouble is coming on down the line. I can read between the lines; Stephen has jealous tendencies I can guarantee. Robbin, the drugs I worry will become a problem and Nikki is already slowly heading that way." I pause as it seems that Hope is done on one side and I help Paul switch her to the other side as she latches on and I smooth back her curls, kissing her little forehead and I continue, "Sometimes I really HATE being 'the alien', I feel heartbreak is coming down the line for them."

"From what you've told me, sadly I believe you are right. I trust your feelings completely. We will see I suppose if it plays out like we think, though I really hope it doesn't." Paul says being careful not to jostle Hope finally she is finished and Paul burps her, as he then starts singing and rocking her until she is asleep and is carefully placed in her crib, as I wrap an arm around Paul's waist as we linger watching over her making sure she is safe. "Night my Martian Princess, sleep well. Mommy and daddy love you so much." I smile at him referring to our daughter as 'Martian Princess'.

Once back in our bedroom, I pull Paul down to me and kiss him repeatedly....

"I love you."

"And I LOVE YOU." He counters looking down at me. If you're wondering, fuck no the height differences bother neither of us, least of all me. Carefully we climb back in bed, my spine crackling...naturally, but the pain passes quickly...as Paul lays his head on my chest, and I run my fingers thru his hair. "There's something else bothering you baby."

"You know me so well." I murmur and I feel guilty, "I am SORRY I'm going in the studio next month, leaving to...."

Paul cuts me off, "First off, don't be sorry.... you're not fucking abandoning me or Hope." Firmly. "Secondly, you're not Gene...making me carry shit on my own. You CARE, and thirdly, I want you to do what you love Mick. You will always come back to me; I'll bring Hope to you, and we will work it out if sitters are needed." Paul was right by the way.

"You are right Paul....and you need me to straighten that Fucker out? Gene I mean? He obviously didn't get the message the first time I gave him a black eye." I end snarling practically.

"I may do that; things are tense between us in the band right now." Paul sighs tracing patterns on my chest. "Something must make him see.... If it's not you or me, well I don't know. Eric is taking my side though; we don't call him the Fox for nothing."

A thought occurs, "Paul.... doesn't, well Gene have a thing for him?"

Paul cranes to look at me smirk forming across his STUNNING features, "You know he DOES, Gene is too stubborn to give in on his own when it comes to the band and me. But Eric.... i have an idea, I'll run it by him." Paul ends with a yawn; I bring a gentle hand to his face.

"Go back to sleep my Star. I love you."

"I love you too." Paul is out moments later, and I kiss him gently on his lips.

"You complete me, you, and Hope both. I love you and her so much.... if you need me, you need only call my name, cause my star.... i will come running."

A/N: A glimpse into the life of Mick and Paul and their adorable daughter Hope and a Kiss of insight as it were on our other characters in this story. Next chapter, a bit of a time skip...Mӧtley in the studio and the signs of the drama to come.... stay tuned!