My Step Brother's Obsession - Carly #2

Mild Agoraphobia

Carly

His soft lips are on mine. I was unaware he felt this way. I knew they kept joking around. Kaden and Aiden had noticed and I had just shrugged it off as banter and a little flirting, nothing too much, nothing too offensive. It was light and friendly unlike when guys take it too far naming no names but this was Kyler my best friend apart from Jonathan they were the closest I had to friends here and they understood me more than anyone ever did apart from Kaden and Aiden. Now his lips were softly brushing against mine. Had no clue what to do. Should I stand here like an idiot or kiss him back?

The question was soon answered when he bit on my lip and I gasped. He pushed his tongue into my mouth and all inside my mouth fluttered like a bubble popping a thousand times. I moved my mouth with his and he wrapped his arms around me kissing me deeply. I felt as if I was going to explode, butterflies fluttering in my gut as he continued kissing me, holding me tightly to me. I have only felt like this one time before and now he's gone and moved on with his life. Will it be any different if I let Ky in?

The kiss ended quicker than I would have liked it to. He moved away pressing his head in mine. "I really like you, Carls."

"I'm not ready Ky."

"I know and I'm sorry. I've wanted to do it for so long, kiss you. I will wait for you no matter how long it takes. I need to get myself back to me before I even think about rushing into any relationship. Will you wait until I am free of the nightmares?"

I just nodded, unable to string any other words together. His eyes were so perfect, so blue.

He smiles and presses a chaste kiss on my lips and moves away taking his arms from around me. "If we never get this again I will cherish the kiss we shared forever."

I smile still muted by this overwhelming feeling inside of me. He steps away from me. "Well goodnight Carly Bear."

"Night Ky."

He smiles and he's gone. I open my door and step in closing the door. I kick off my boots and take my coat off before heading over to the bed and collapsing on it. It feels weird not having Ky next to me. I felt comfortable in his arms but he needs to get his head straight and nightmare free before we can even continue this, whatever it is. My eyes grow heavy and flutter closed.

Caspian

I know I can't keep hiding the truth away from all of them, but my top priority right now is getting my friends better and hopefully away from their demons. We all deal with our demons even if they are different from one another. I was diagnosed with Mild Agoraphobia it's not as critical as full blown agoraphobia but it drains me, so much so I have to stay in my cabin at least forty percent of the time. No one knows what is happening to me apart from two people who have sworn to keep it to themselves; one my doctor/psychiatrist who is sworn by oath and patent confidentiality and the other my sweet sweet Star. She's been here for me since day dot. She was here through one of my episodes and talked me down and finally managed to get me stable enough to convince me to see a professional about it. I don't know why she had come to see me that day but I was glad she had. I remember it so clearly. I had woken at six am ready to take on the world because today was a good day or so I thought. Until I heard all the campers running and screaming. My head started pounding liek a bad fuckin headache I placed my hands on my head trying to stop the pain and the screaming. Then the vision of my platoon getting ambushed by the gang who had a hold of most of Africa had come into our safe place to help the families with food, water and schooling. They came at us from all angles we hoped out of the truck, the others from jeeps as they opened fire we didn't hesitate to retaliate, men, women, children screaming and running around us taking bullets falling to the ground dead.

I hadn't realised that she had come into my cabin. The sly angel must've picked the lock after getting no answer. I didn't know she was there until she put her arms around me and I flinched. "Is okay Cas, I've got you."

I melted onto her arms shaking. "Star?"

"That's my name, don't wear it out!" She cracked.

"Why are you here?"

"Well that's nice no hello but why are you here?" She cracked a smile. "I'm here cause the guys said they hadn't seen you for a few days, they assumed you were doing whatever you do when you're locked up in that office of yours. But I went there first and imagine my surprise when I found it empty, I guessed you would be here. I knocked and got no answer. I'm sorry I picked your lock. I was worried you'd done something stupid."

"I'm not that stupid."

"I realised that now but you scared the shit out of me Cas."

"I'm sorry. I had a few bad days. I thought this was a good one but obviously I was wrong."

"Would you like to tell me what happened to have you locked in your cabin?"

I nod and tell her about what happened during my time in Africa, not all of it. I don't want to scare her. She sat silently as I spoke to her my voice cracking every now and again telling her how hard I try to get out of the cabin someday I can, then others it's like I'm taken back to Africa and what happened there."

She pulls me into a hug. "Promise me you'll talk to a professional about this Cas, before it takes over your life and you become too afraid to go outside and end up a shell of the man you are and become a hermit."

I laugh slightly. "I'll never do that."

"Then promise to see someone. I'm not a professional but I know you're suffering from whatever happens out there."

"I will. Will you come with me?"

She smiles like the angel she is. "I will. I promise."

Our eyes are fixed on each other. I place my hand around her neck and pull her close, kissing her softly. I moved away. "Thanks Angel."

"You're welcome."

I pull her close once again and don't delay in kissing her passionately.

A week later I have an appointment with the doctor and she tells me from what I have described I have Mild Agoraphobia and she will make an appointment with the psychiatrists so I can talk about what happened and how it brought the Mild Agoraphobia on. She also prescribed some medication for it. I still have my bad days but not as bad as they were all those months ago. I know it may or may never go away so I'll just have to live with it. And it's all thanks to my angel who is waiting for me when I return to my cabin.

I open the door and step in. Closing the door she turns and smiles. The breathtaking smile she's had since the day I met her.