My Step Brother's Obsession - Carly #2

Awkwardness

Jonathan

I had totally screwed up, I hadn't pushed Carly away and made excuses not to go home and talk to her about our future, about having a baby in our future. I wouldn't be here right now dwelling on the truth I was a fuckin idiot. I had lied to Star know if she knew the whole truth it wouldn't be just a punch in the face I would have no balls literally and she would've told me to stay the hell away from her feet formed and I understood that but I was scared I would lose Carly before she had gotten to her and told her the bitter truth. Kayak was right. I was disgusted and I was disgusted in myself. We usually talked as a throuple not to go and do stupid and reckless shit because we weren't happy. I had well and truly ducked up and I don't not see any way back from this not this time, the truth was I don't not want Carly to think I was pushing her into having something she was ready for I laid my bed and I guess I would be lying in it alone.

Carly

I entered the cabin after I had walked around the forest to give me time to think about everything that transpired this morning. I was hungry but I don't think I could eat any th8gn without throwing it back up. I still wasn't sure where we could go from here. If we could go anywhere from here. It would take me a long time to put my trust in Jonathan again right now I'm not even sure I can.

I closed the cabin door behind me. They both looked at me. They both looked relieved I was back. I mean where else was I supposed to go? They had brought me here. My car was back at home as they had insisted that we all got in the jeep. If I had my car I would've headed back for sure I don't know how the rest of the weekend is going but I'm just too drained to give a damn.

"Carly you're back."

"I have nowhere else to go."

"Would you like something to eat?"

"I'm not hungry." I lied. "I'm just going to head to bed."

"Sure."

I walked past them and headed to the spear room. I kicked my trainers off and dropped them onto the bed. I lay in silence thinking of how things went from being perfect to horribly wrong.

The bed dipped and an arm fell over my hips. "I love you Carly."

"Can you answer me truthfully, Kyler."

"Yes."

"Did you cheat on me as well?"

He kissed my shoulder. "I would never cheat on you, Angel, no matter how hard things got. I promise."

I nodded with tears in my eyes and dropped onto the pillow as Kyler held onto me tightly.

Jonathan

I know I had messed up royally when Kyler cut his eyes at me when Carly announced that she wasn't hungry and went to the bedroom at a guess one of the spare ones as we had all slept together last time we were here. It all seems such a long time ago now.

"If she decides to leave, I'm leaving with her. You've dotecthaixshti to yourself, Jonathan. We had a good thing going but you had to fuck it up for both of us cause you thought to have a gn a family was more important than being just fucking happy I was fuckng happy and you pulled me away from her too. I'll never forgive you for this. You used me so you could get your end away for six fucking months not a one night at and you fucking disgust me and to think we were brothers in arms I trusted you so did Carly and you did this to both of us not giving a shit about the consequences. I'm done J you've fucked the one thing we both wanted so badly cause you felt an affair would bring you some kind of satisfaction but all you did was destroy everything you had so you could dip your dick into some hoe that didn't what you wanted now you've destroyed everything."

I went to open my mouth. "Save it J on sick to death of your ducking bullshite excuses god knows what Carly feels like right now after all your fuckin broken promises I'm going to see if she's okay and you better not follow," he said storming boost me almost knocking me off my feet.

I deserved that. I had not only messed this whole trouble up by rocking the boat but I was losing my best friend as well. I'm such an idiot for thinking I could shove this to the back of my mind and ignore it for so fucking long. I loved Carly with all my heart and I had made the biggest mistake, the biggest sin I ever could, instead of talking to her about how I was feeling. I knew I was going to lose both of them but I wasn't sure how I could get either of them back and for them to trust me after this.

I hardly slept that night knowing Kyler was with Carly and I was out here racking my brain of how to make things right between all of us.

Carly was the first up I was just lying on the sofa in deep thought when she strode in like the angel she was and always had been. I swallowed hard what was I even thinking fucking things up with her she meant everything to me. "I'm sorry Carly Bear. I never meant for any of this to happen or hurt you."

She turned and looked at me. "Well, you did."

I swallowed again. "Do you think there is any coming back from this?"

"I don't know."

I nodded.

"I don't know if I can ever trust you to do something like this to me again J."

"I won't."

"How can you be so sure?"

"I just am. I am going to prove to you that you can trust me again Carly Bear and have me back in your life."

She nodded.

"We'll see."

"I understand."

"I want to go home."

"Okay."

"I'm going to sleep in the sleep in spare room for now I'll let Ky know but J, you need to realise it's not going to be easy from now on I don't trust that easily. "

"I understand."

Kyler walked in and wrapped his arms around her kissing her cheek. I swallowed audibly feeling sick in the out of my stomach. If I hadn't cheated on someone so precious it would be me now too who was holding her and kissing her.

What the fuck had I done?

"Good morning angel."

"Ky."

"Is everything okay?"

"It's fine. I told J I wanted to head home."

"Sure angel if that's what you want."

"I do."

"Sure we'll have breakfast and head back."

"Thanks."

"No problem angel."

"I'm moving into the spare room."

"Why?"

"I think you know why."

"You're mad at J I understand but we can sleep in the same room."

"I don't think that's a good idea."

"But.."

"For the time being okay."

"Sure whatever let's eat and get the fuck out of here."

He took his arms from around her and mumbled. "Thai was supposed to be a weekend of getting close to each other, not pulling away from each other."

I couldn't agree more but I wasn't going to tell him or he'd rip me a new arsehole.

We ate breakfast, refreshed and grabbed our shit that we hadn't even bothered to take out of the cases. We headed to the Jeep in silence putting our cases in the boot before getting into the Jeep I pulled away and the awkward silence continued through the three-hour drive back home. If we could Eden call it home now it just felt like a boarding house now that Carly had decided to take the spare room and hazard a guess Kyler would take the other room so he didn't have to be near me. Fuck this stung more than I thought it would.