My Step Brother's Obsession - Carly #2

He's Back!

Carly

It had been a year since Star and Caspian took their vows and they were happily married. Though complications had occurred between them when they had decided to try for their first born unfortunately it was something they weren't expecting to be told that they couldn't have kids the good old fashioned way they were on the waiting list for IVF it was hit and miss that they would even get pregnant it wasn't a hundred percent but they were being optimistic through it all.

Jonathan, Kyler an£ I were still going strong. I have hope that one day will start a family of our own but work has been hectic over the past few years. Now I'm finally ready to have children. I'm not sure if they want the same. We haven't talked about having a family for such a long time and it's becoming a hard task to even talk to them about it these days. I'm not even sure how either one of them would take it if I were to become pregnant. It's begging to put a strain on our relationship I love them to the moon and back buyt a family could make or break us that's why I chose not to get married I love them equally an£ I don't want them to think I think any more or less of the other when I decide who I want to marry. We can all be together without that ring and I'm happy with the way things are. Marriage will never be on the cards for any of us. They said they both wanted a child with me but what if it isn't possible? What if we have the same problems that Star and Cas are going through right now? What will they be like if they find out one of them is the dad and the other isn't? They've already told me they don't want a paternity test if I decide to go ahead and decided to have a baby with them they will love the child no matter who the child's father is they don't want a DNA to prove the biological father is cause they will both be the child's father an£ love them unconditionally no matter what. I'm so confused right now.

A soft kiss is placed on my forehead. "So everything okay angel?"

"It's fine."

"It doesn't look fine." Kyler says sitting facing me, lacing our hands together. "I know we haven't spent a lot of time together but J and I are going to make it up to you. I promise."

I nod agreeing with him I've heard this a thousand times before and been dissopinted every fucking time. We're slowly growing apart and I can feel it.

"Work has been hectic for all of us. How about I talk to J and we can head off to the cabin this weekend okay?"

I nod knowing they'll talk about it like they have a thousand times before but do nothing about it. I've been left out in the cold and disappointed. Maybe our relationship is fizzling out like everyone thinks it will. We've been together for six years now and now I'm ready to have a family, they choose to distance themselves from me. I can't take much more of this either they book their ideas up or I'm gone.

"Is everything okay over here?"

We both look up to see Jonathan smiling at the both of us but I can't even muster a smile back. "We're fine J." I snide.

Kyler looks at me surprised. He looks at Jonathan. "I just apologised to Carly bear for not being around so much of late."

"We're all working hard."

Some more than others I wanted to point out were they seeing another girl behind my back all the times they arrived back home late and not once touched me like they used to. I shake that thought away they promised that they would never hurt me intentionally but it already feels like they are, like they're pushing me away. I haven't spoken to anyone about the way I feel because Star has her own problems right now. Able is off jetsetting with his new girl. He's on about proposing if I was him I wouldn't bother, relationships are not worth shit, not anymore.

"I told Carly bear I'd talk to you about all of us going up to the cabin this weekend."

"We'll see. Depends on work."