My Step Brother's Obsession - Carly #2

Mild Agoraphobia Pt 2

"Hey Cas. How's things with Jonathan? Did you air out your concerns?"

"I did angel. He didn't think I was to blame, he said it was no one's fault. He said he should've told us what was going on but he wanted to keep it to himself as he wasn't sure what it was."

"So he was being stubborn. And well a man like you? Full of pride."

"Yeah I guess he was. We chatted for a while."I said, pulling her in and kissing her forehead. "But he's not the only one who's suffering the effects of war. Kyler is as well."

"Is he okay?"

"I guess he will be once he gets the help he needs. He's having nightmares. I guess they took a toll on him and he lashed out."

"Fuck who did he hurt?"

I stayed silent and she looked up those perfect blue eyes staring into mine, the ones that had pulled me in the first moment I had met her.

"Please don't tell me it was Carly."

I gulped.

"It was, wasn't it?"

"He didn't mean it, angel. He must've grabbed her a little too harshly whilst he was having a nightmare."

"He could've killed her Cas."

"I know." I sighed. "But she reacted quickly.

"What if she hadn't? What if she doesn't next time?"

"I don't think there will be a next time, angel. She is still freaked out about it. I'm sure she won't be spending any time alone with him for a while until his shit is sorted."

"I hope so. I can't lose my best friend."

"And you won't."

"How can you be sure?"

I placed my hand under her chin and caressed her cheek. "She's a lot brainier than anyone gives her credit for. She will stick by their sides even if it's from a distance. She won't put herself in that position again. Do you trust me on this?"

She looks into my eyes and nods. I lean forward pressing my lips on hers and kiss her slowly and passionately. I remember the second time that we kissed it was like fireworks exploding in my mouth and around my entire body. I had never felt like it before even when I was around Carly and thought I wanted her as much as Kyler and Jonathan did. But now I know I just wanted what they had even if they weren't in a full on relationship. I was still jealous of how much time they spent with her, how they made her laugh, how well they got on and the flirting banter between them. Even if Carly didn't see it like they did they were flirting with her and trying to impress her despite the fact she had a boyfriend who is no longer around and they're no closer to getting what they want especially since we all came back from war broken.

It had been the first day I met with the psychiatrist to talk about what was going on and Star had insisted she came along. I agreed not wanting to offend her. I wanted to do it all alone but she insisted I needed a friend to be there for me if things got too much. And believe me I was glad she was. Some stuff we went through was difficult even for me as a sergeant war was a difficult thing to talk about to anyone. She laced our fingers together and squeezed my hand smiling letting me know every now and again she was with me and wasn't going anywhere. I appreciated her boldness and willingness to be by my side as I relayed everything horrific that had happened which wasn't supposed to. We were there on the assumption we were delivering food and other supplies to the townspeople, not a damn war with a gang who wanted to try and stop us at every turn we made.

I came out a little less agitated and thanked her and kissed her softly. When I moved back I just stared at the perfect Angel in front of me then I knew from that day I wanted nothing more but to have her in my life for the foreseeable future. I pressed my lips back on hers kissing her. She stood frozen as I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her in then I slid my tongue over her bottom lip and she shivered, opening up for me. I slid my tongue in and kissed her with so much passion it left us both breathless. "I like you Star. I want us to take this further."

"Are you sure? I mean..I.. I'm nothing special."

How could she even think that no one has ever done anything like she had for me, ever. She was perfect in every way, my Angel. "Yes you are."

"Don't joke about things like this Cas. I really like you and I can't bear it if you're just taking the piss out of me for your satisfaction."

Oh. Now I see what Carly and the guys gave me the pep talk about Star. She's insecure and guys have taken advantage of that in the past. I'm not that guy. I see her for who she truly is, an Angel. She's my angel. She has curved in all the right places. She's true perfection. I don't understand how guys can treat her like they do. "I'm not, angel. I like you just the way you are."

She smiles wearily.

"I promise if this goes further than tonight I'll prove to you I want you and I'm not like all the other guys you've met. I promise."

She stares at me like she's sizing me up and trying to work out if I'm telling her the truth and whether or not I'm worth it. I'm not and I hope she thinks I am.

She smiles. "You have one chance mister and if you screw it up we're done and we won't ever cross paths again."

"Understood." I look at her and rub the pad of my thumb across her cheek. "Are you sure you are ready for this Star, us? I've got a lot of demons."

"So have I."

"Are you sure you can cope with me when I have an episode like today?"

"I'm sure."

I smile and lean forward. I press my lips on hers and we kiss passionately.

I smile remembering that moment liek it was yesterday. I pull away from our kiss.

She smiles at me. "Are we ready to eat?"

"Sure am. I'm starving."

She smiled, took my hand and leads me into the kitchen where the table was already laid and the plates of chicken risotto were there, piping hot with two glasses of lemonade. I smile that she'll make a perfect wife someday. I hope to get some normality back so that day will happen in the near future. She is my everything, my Angel. I know she has to finish uni first but I will have a surprise waiting for her the day of graduation.

We sit down and chat idly, eating and drinking. Once we're finished we clear up one washes and one drys. It's our routine. No one knows she's been here for the past couple of months; she sneaks back to Camp Hollingway early enough not for anyone to notice she's here. One day it won't be like that, but for now it's what we have to do so we don't cause any suspicion.

We sit on the sofa cuddle up watching the television until it turns ten then we head to bed. I pull her into me and kiss her hair. We haven't done anything as yet we both altered to wait until the time was right. But now I'm regretting that decision. I want her so badly. But, I am willing to wait until she is ready.

I close my eyes and drift into dreamless sleep.