Black On White (day by day jernal)

July 1st 2013

I'm not home but still in tears I can't hold it.... What's wrong with me why does my family fight why can't my family be like normal family's next to no problems no tears night after night no crude joke offending us all. So why arnt you home you may be asking well I'm at the pats again yelling and arguments leaving the house and haunting the car ride, never thought te names I was called as a child by my parents would come back as such an age or still hurt at my age... Dick, Asshole, Fucking idiot , Whore. Why me as ur daughter. If only he know how I felt.... It would probably make it worse the name calling gets worse and te world continues to evolve around him. And here I have... No one. I feel like if I had someone I could actually cry infront of someone like a fiend I've never cryed to a friend. Or even told any family issues. And another reason I'm still single -.- so um yes I stopped and now I'm home and it's midnight so yea I was quiet the whole time my parents arnt letting me do ANYTHING with my hair witch pisses me off soooo much!!! Yea a horse took a shit right infront of me -.- what that actuall fuck? You may think why the hell where u near a horse well I went to the Canada's day parade and yea.... I never actually met dream but I let kellie read you and she told Steve she was working on finding me a boyfriend after Steve said a smart ass remark about me being single.... And she told Steve about dream being my dream guy... Yea.. Hope Steve dosnt tell my parents. But yea hopes are still up a little I feel so bad for kimmie..... Yea just gonna end it at that cuz it's not my life to be telling the internet. But yep. Steve and I had a mud fight last night it was hilarious lol well I think my moms gonna wake me up in 6 hours to go for a run so I better get some sleep

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