Black On White (day by day jernal)

Wtf am i doing

He fucks with my emotions... I like him tho.

It's true I die to talk to him and never loose beat talking to him although he trails at his own unpredictable pase.

One second non stop talking ..

Than the next he opens a sweet thing and never replies.

He dattles on calling me pretty, beautiful, perfect...

I play him back for sure I do.

But I'd still kiss him any day of the week.

He fucks with me but is die without talking to him.

My heat breaks to peaces when I hear his name.

I fell and I don't feel to get up.

I really like him and

MY FUCK HES SO HOT😭😭😭

His hair so grown out and he styled it hot as fuck and showed me his hair like that.

And also he wakes up with hot messy bed head and when he washes it and Dosnt choose to style and it's hot.. it's fucking really really hot!

Like idk my emotions if anything have grown for him...

I know I'm so fucking young and I get it I'm young. I'm almost 15 and some ppl believe that's too young to be in relationships..

I disagree I think I'm ready for a committed relationship, but I can't see myself with anyone but him.

And I'll keep up with his little game of the " flirting or wheeling"

Ill call him hot and super attractive, perfect and send winky faces and hearts. because I won't let him win.

He won but were still playing and I'm hoping he can loose too.

Maybe miss a beat and fall.

And not get up but stay on the ground with me.... forever.

Truly, madly, deeply.

That fucking song 😭😭😭

I wish it was him and i.

"I'm just the underdog who finally got the guy". Those lyrics will be me!

Or kidnap.. or kidnap... that shot works just as well.

One direction is ruining my life😂😂

Also the book.. 'The bad boy, Cupid&I'

Truly, madly, deeply make me cry.... and I don't think it would if him and I haven't been a thing..

So jack got his lip pierced... he can still have my children... (Thatsojack)

Oh yep the ass snapped me back " oh hey look I kick ass at video games suck on that u emotional freak"

Yepp.... than nothing.

Nothing.

Just nothing.

I just wanna tell him.

Hey, tbh I really fucking like u and it sucks u know.... u don't actually know how much u toy with my emotions and how much I fucking hate how u make me feel most days. I want us to be a thing again tbh I have no fucking clue where I went wrong and I wanna know.

But hey more importantly is what's going on between us.... is it flirting or wheeling.

I can't get over you because u set the bar high as fuck.

I still to this day can't imagine my first kiss with anyone but you.

You call me pretty and gorgeous but why can't u just call me yours..

Or stop fucking with me and say hey were just friends not "wow" and draw a heart eyed face or " i can't get over how pretty you are"

Because I need something real.

Although I want it to be with you if feeling arnt mutual I'll get over it and stop dwelling over u and ur perfection.

One direction singing lyrics of the feels Dosnt help my uncontrolled emotions

I could never send that to him.. it's to deep. that's why it's here. I guess I'm not ballsy to send such emotion to him.

I kinda wish he knew tho.

I wish even more that I could talk to him bout such a touchy topic.

And him to reply.

Or to feel the same.

I wish he regretted ending things.

It's been over a month... like I should be over him. but I'm not.

I'm here in distress.