Black On White (day by day jernal)

September 1st 2013

So I've been thinking.....

And that's never really a good thing..

Is it?

Well not this time...I guess it never is

So I was watching a movie/document

And my dad said....

You are who your friends are....

I'm nothing like my friends tho..

I'm different I'm nothing near close ...

Well when it comes to the dead point.

So what's that mean,..

And if people figure out my friends ...

They will think I'm like them ..

And the shit comes on me -.-

So idk.. I love my friends but if it gets out... And I get involved for being a friend.....

I don't think ill be able to help myself...

I will need to find other people or a person to keep my rep good and how I want it. And that would have to happen before people start to know...

And I'm getting so many messages and it's so hard to talk to u ..

Having secrets to keep that are confusing and making me think to control my life ....

And I can't tell u...

I'm sorry tho.

So I don't actually know I was auctually starting to think this could be a good year... But maybe not.

I need to get myself out there before anyone else and get myself a boyfriend along with someone who will help me get good marks and not be the awkward 3rd person and don't tell me I'm not because when it comes down to it I am and always was

And always will be because in a relationship....AHAHAHAHAH

Like that would ever happen so clearly ill just stuck being the 3rd person

So I streaked my hair with highlights it looks wierd but I can make it work!

So I watched nitro circus ❤❤❤😍😍😍😍❤❤❤

So um enough said I'm watching it again over and over and over again.

It's perfect and I love it to death

So yea...

You are who your friends are....

I don't like this situation it's killing me

I'm sorry for whatever stupid shit I do in my future.

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