Black On White (day by day jernal)

september 19th 2013

so i dont know about u but life is getting really boring like its honestly the littlest things that make my day especially from him <3 like i really like him i never expected to fall this deep like y voice goes high when i see him i get the giggle exited voice for no reason when he looks at me and the first time i dont know if i told u ill go cheack k so after the imbaressing thing with my face and him than another day he wait did i tell u bout him yelling hey squeeks and im pretty sure he was talking to me but that was before the wierd face and before the wierd face im pretty sure he tryed to walk beside me but i was late for class so i kept my speed and dident also once i got back from my trip the tuesday im pretty sure yep the tuesday he said "hey Stacey" to me in a mental voice and i honestly died but i was honestly running to class cuz i was late so i couldent relpy but yea and also like last weeks wensday i msged him on facebook and he never replyd or read it so that like dropped me but the "hey Stacey" made up for it bbut im still afraid to msg him on facebook....and holly mother fuckers the same day he said hey stacey i posted a picture on instagram that had a saying/qoute tottally directed to him and he was the first one to like it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! on and on vacation so last sunday he spammed my instagram but only certin photos like selfies but without a wig or makeup overkill or anythin like that like no drawings or anything like that only soe and it made my day but now like nothing like i look at him and yesterday he would look back at me and not say anything or make anyfaces or stare well i dont think it was like noting and that kills me cuz i up too my nose in this hole that ive fallen into (fallen deeply for him)  and yea like urgh and i wa talking to this super sweet girl in his class just about anything really cuz where in DDA together for opptions and he walked in to the computer room with like some other guys and a teacher( my dramma teacher) and she was like "oh theres _______(insert name here)-.- (i swear that was her like expression and tone) like in a not impressed voice. and him and i made eye cntact for a short moment but i tryed not to but i did and he looked at me and nothin.... blank expression from him.... (i bet i looked like a scared fetus) (everyone calls me fetus its my nickname) and yea i also saw him walking past him in the hall way and i looked at him face and like all guys i crush on my mouth slightly opened and i was talking to kellie and i replyed to what ever she said and said "yep" and it came out really high pitched right infront of him... yep kellie killed herself laughing -.- but than once again (later that day) i passed him in the hall and looked at his face like all stalker girls do and i swear he has braces...... idk how to feel about braces its kinda like a what ever ( so practically hes gonna have beyond perfect teeth and imma scream and like dye over his perfect teeth in like 3 years or so) lol but ya and also i was sitting in my bus cassually being a stalker staring at him as he took his little brother glasses and weared them than gave them back and he had that i have braces in my mouth face like how there lips like pop out like ya know above the lip where braces sit ya that was popped out on his face and so ya steve sat beside me, me secrettly fangirling thanking god that the bus windows where tinted altho he still probally saw me staring at him..... and ya steve watched him or hos brother threw the window .... it had to be one of them cuz they where the only two in the direction steve was looking so i was like what r u looking at and he dident say and im like what r u looking at and hes like i missed chase when we where gone tottaly avoiding my question .... so ya i got on the bus to a comment on the pictture with the saying directed toward him on it from narsh and her comment said "ahah and he liked it" so i tottaly cap locked her and told her to delete it witch she did thank god lol but ya ......... i just really really like him and dont know whaat to do or say hes constantly talking to so many diffrent girls in his class and i bet every girl likes him and just URGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! like hes like trevor moran so not my type but i like him more than guys who are my type.....so maybe he is my type and the "type" i declare i have isnt actually real......mind blown,......idk just ya hes the worst yet like bad enought thatt ive ade the first move in friend requests and msging and yea!!!!!!!!!! and that my alarm is wake up get  ready for hell and look good for him.... thats why i wake up and idk its skinny love im pretty sure ya know both ppl r shy about it altho he doesnt seem like a shy guy but ive herd he  is i just want someone on the inside to figgure it out

pece <3 watermellon