Black On White (day by day jernal)

November 15th 2012 examples and depresions

So today I woke up and I felt great ad as I threw all the powders and pencils of make up on my face I started to drop it was depressions coming over me I got to school quiet not a peep or word out of my loud mouth film studies quiet assembly quiet,lunch not a peep from resses a friend was upset in always the one to help no but I'm kinda in the middle they think cuz I don't know them if they lose there friends the new girl don't know the real me. But not a word from Stacey I don't want to talk I'm quiet no peeps not answering questions in class no word to teachers just standing by friends oh yeah outside me being me I spotted quiff kid standing outside in the snow in a freaken tshirt when theres freaken snow on the ground his rad turned my eyes dropped to my feet. Now back from my awkward forgetful moment. Gym....I was exited but everytime I step out of the class before gym I feel so nervous and jittery my friends looked over at me like what the hell is up with that kid...drugs? Lol I was probably shaking noticeably I got changed shaking to death and try to pick up my piercings to get it changed out I see me shaking can barley pick up the little Baggie. I run out of the change room with my awkward Barbie hands and run to the teacher with a bag of piercings I get to her and unscrew the bar she pulls it out violently, I pass her the first stud with the backing in my hand still she slips it on and I fit it in my ear properly, I hand her the next stud she stabs it threw and I hand her the backing this microscopic backing she drops in on the wooden floor again , I drop to my knees and start patting the floor teacher comes down too.

Do Theys cost extra money? She asked

Yeah! I said smoothly

A friend comes over what did u lose a microscopic backing like the one in my eat I show her after 1min she finds it I fit it on my ear and adjust it.

We stretch and get started simply with balances rlly simple like a pushup position we also did this be known as the airplane? Yeah one leg flat back bent over other leg out arms up like an airplane, they say to be better arch your back. I think like an aerobass yeah I can't spell.

But I did and so the teacher said go after he let the example person sit and practice like the rest of the group.

Hey,piercing gurl the other teacher said not mine but the gym teacher teaching.he was looking at me I get out of the balance and look up.

Come here he said so I did. Do you do dance? He asked

Yes. I replied

He stopped the class.

So this way is a more harder way prettier and cuz se has a dance background. So let's see he says to me so I do I do it the way I would in ballet my leg in retera and out to the position. I arched my back feeling my lower back muscles squeezing and working on my left side I'm more comfortable with my right leg therefor my right leg stayed on the ground, I lifted my head up as I arched my back there right in front of me at the back is quiff kid I feel my muscles start to shake like a hot shiver of over working.

Okay and come down. I come down and calmly walk back to my mat.

That was my highlight but other than that it was cake can't wait for next class.

As I was getting my piercing changed back the teacher the taught the class came up can u go into a bridge from stand?

Yeah I said like I have been doing it for years which I have been since I was 6. So I might be the next example......☺😥😒😳😱 I'm mixed emotions about it.

I get changed and go to my brothers Locker like always and than we headed back to the gym I have to stay with the brat to stay with him for his basketball tryouts I can't believe he made it so far going against 8ers & 9ers so yeah my nabor stays with me we go upstairs and observe. Yes!!! No quiff kid so u can't get off topic of watching Steve and texting my bbgs yes ariane ❤ gotta luv her. It's finally over and we go home I cook Kraft dinner for everyone but hotdogs for Steve. Than go on the computer I totally break down on polyvore I'm not Stacey I'm nobody I have no personality no wacko style fashion nothing me no braces that made me I wish I was the old Stacey with perfect friends a perfect life when I had braces was happy to be anorexic ad not to be large and when I dident over do my makeup or do my hair naturally but having Stacey hair. I cried as I was talking to my good friend Alex gawd Daym it she always makes me smile threw eating the dirt as I'm helping others with problems but Alex no words can describe her! Gotta luv that gurl.

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