Black On White (day by day jernal)

June 23rd 2013

Hey it's after 10... So I've just been informed I need to free my mind again finals start tomorrow so like in 11 or so hours ... So yeah I got back from camping and went swimming than long boarding in dresses with kellie❤ than back to swimming than dinner than kellies boyfriend came over I spit pop on him and than I left .... Yea now u may think oh Stacey your a bitch but kellie gave me permission cuz I have a spoon afoboa and he tryed to touch me with one so yea and I'm actually really like stressed and pissed just nothing good I'm confused and nervous and holy fuck like I have no clue how the fuck I got myself into this I lost my camera like its eather lost at kellies house or yard or my room or somewhere n between... -.- all the shit from this weekend... Yea .. Also sconce exam tomorrow.... And um yea they made the study guide the tottal opposite than how I actually learn like dont ask us question give us answers to study not questions like fuck! Yea and I'm hanging with Kim and the other after finals...at school...bout the camp week questions and antisapashion so yea bout dream.... It's hard to explain and it makes no sence not even to me... Like the way he's described is perfection he's becoming a character in my life a part in my dreams but without a face... I've never seen him.. Ever.. And oh how I wish I could to put a face to a dream ...to my dreams ... Like I don't get it and how do I just full out say umm... Kellie..... If he comes back can I just like marry him and lock him in my closet? Lol I know kellies not reading this at the time I'm writing it not even like in a week or so honestly lol so um yea the imbaressment will go away.... All the story's I was silent like fangirling trying to hide it from her.... It's like a new secret I don't want to tell her I'm scared but ... Yea ill worm up like everything .. She knows it all. So um I know this is off topic but I just sat on a tube of moisturizer and just realized it was opened and I got it all over my ass.... Btw it's 12:14 now so yea I took a so called study break and my laptop started to work again... I honestly don't want to wear cloths that's appropriate to school like fuck I want a damn tanktop... I've also been thinking bout all my past so called boyfriends no skaters .... Lol yea no normal hair...like odd much and non of them had any piercings... I awkwardly don't like guys who have piercings like at all.....idk why... I don't know why I keep looking over.. I'm hair so confused and Im just wanting to seek answers but I'm too scared to venture out to get the yet..it's all tottally now ..... On a good note..... TREVOR MORANS FAVORITE COULOR IS RED!!!!!!!!! yea had to let that out I'm so happy but honestly quiff is so outta my mind like totally I know he was starring at me only doing the flash mob outta the little mob and good dancers... Maybe because I look like a freak but who gives a fuck ❤ I had 1850s hair that day ... Shit Kim's starting to kik me again.... K well that MSG should help.... Urgh... Well kimmie will help me tomorrow help me with it all brb ..back yea so um I'm really curious and fuck why can't he have medias to creep?!?!?! Like hell man! I want a thing with him so badly but one thing kellie said in a story with him in it scared me about him if we ever met or got together one thing she said scared me to shits! Like holly mother duckling! I got a nice tan today ❤ your probably wondering what's scaring me if we met and got together but I don't think I'm ready to tell yet to let that little smudge out yet..... So I'm sorry but that's life but u know ill tell sooner or later brb

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