Black On White (day by day jernal)

Augest 9th 2013

Holly crap I would have never thought not having a boyfriend would take a huge tole on kellie like lol I swear she's lost lolololol I cat help but find it a bit humerious lol I'm like the worst friend ever arnt I ? Lol I feel terable for it but yea I'm just a jerk face lol so today kellie and I went to bottle depot and sorted out the recycling and took it out where doing the same tomorrow with more I'm exited! Also I got a job not like full time I don't think but for a weekend I do ❤ I'm so exited! Yea so ummm yea tomorrow I hopefully find out like my life I really wanna make it it would mean more than the world like no obsession like I know this is huge I would rather make it than meet Trevor like if I could choose one or the other I would choose the pageant! Ur like wtf Stacey picking something over Trevor Moran ?!?!? What is earth?, so yea I'm that serious...... So my mom said to wait till Monday for them like that's the latest so yep ill wait its gonna be so deadly of a wait but I hope it's worth it! So I'm actually at the pats dog watching with my dad we had a horror movie night with a pizza box with bread sticks and cinnamon buns candy and pop and chips lol so yea so last night kellie told me something that ya know holds the secret to the universe like the old Stacey universe so she told me she was talking to quiff and he said he liked me yep the obsessions wernt for nothing the probably added up together hour(s) of stalking wernt for nothing but apparently he liked me when I cared and tried to look pretty for him even know he dident know I was trying for him cuz I liked him so yea.... And how she helps ppl and ya know I'm actually so thankful to have her in my life honestly! Well on another more recent note I haven't herd or really found out in real words if the other kid ya know the one camping likes me I haven't herd like a word bout him but kellie is single so she's like a lost puppy no clue how to servive I'm probably making those sound WAY. More dramatic than it actually is but ya so I'm not gonna ask or bug or bring it up cuz I can wait I think I missed an orthodontist appt. lol.... Fail.... Well I'm kinda exited for school I guess I can say and yea idk I think it's gonna be way more layed back I'm just super stressed bout the missteencanada missteenalberta thing so yeah..... I need something to get my mind off it..... Yea and I have no Internet tonight at the pats so yea I don't understand it's a hard knock life!!!!!! My elbows gonna scar -.- frack I also should probably practice my play or something for it and um ya know do something.,,, I'm just gonna sit inside and stair at a wall till I figure out te anwser for missteenalberta ..... I need to tan more before school and go back to school shopping ad urghhhh if I so make it tho all my piercings bye bye 😭😭😭😭😭 I'm gonna cry as I take them out -.- I just don't know anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It's so stressful like last month of school and a combo of the first weeks and last weeks before it!!!!yea -.- I can't sleep so stressed and curious and nervious I swear I could get a boyfriend with a giant title like missteennorthernalberta or missteenalberta or even missteencanada like frig I would have lots of friends and crap lolololol and haters like x10 my elbows wet 😭😭😭😭😭😭I took hard pillows off the couch cuz there's no pillows -.- cant get comphy!-.- idk what to say...... Gr9 here we come another year holly crap I'm happy cuz I can look back on everyday and be like oh what did I do one year from today? Or yea I find it fun and keeps me sain like ya know how I'm shy and nervious well even around kellie sometime I guess it's cuz she knows the kid that I don't really wanna like say holly crap I think I like that kid altho...,.,,, he's kinda short -.- but ya know how hard it is to find the personalty that I like is hard here in Alberta like how do u get a guy with a cocky adattude that's not like a tottal tottal ass? Like I know it's not hard but ya come to Alberta and only ppl who can see freaking flying pigs r capable of it -.- and ya know kinda cute too not gonna lie alto he's not my dream perfect model looking guys he's cute like Trevor's not my look type but god I love him and would lock him in my closet on a heart beat! Idk I'm just stressed so my minds like f... Logic I'm on drugs!!!! Lol not really but that'd how it's acting it I'm just gonna go with halla loya I've been single for a year or god damn close but if I got food and a face I'm good... Idk I feel mentally like I'm ready but my minds like whatta bout school ,play,drivers,pagent,hair,reputation, parents ,teeth,skin,food,health,workout,logic,homework,alonetime, youtube, makeup,kellie,onlyusss,friends,normal,fashion,piercings,water,job,currer,celebrity, keeping up todate, book,reading and like Stacey u don't have time or exeperance for this but u gotta start somewhere right? Lol oh well....and ya so I know I think I'm being to honest but ya know this is why I made this book and if u got a problem with my problems than ya know don't worry it's not a problem if its told as in told to the whole Internet like this ya know and if I'm not in the hospital or am tromitized and haven't left my room in days than its not a problem it's this thing called like and ya know stuff happens its not all gonna be good but it's gonna teach u something and have a meaning or it woundent a have happened! So I just tryed to sleep but I coludent so i returned.so idfk what to say like the things on my mind r the pageant like if I made it how long my iPods gonna hold a charge quiff and that shocking news and that kid from camping holly crap I found a pattern ..,.., like just now ya know the guys I like like and need to name always r kid.....like quiff kid and other kid.,. Well for now idk what to call him like not yet cuz idk I only wanna give him a name if I know I'm gonna talk about him and although he goes to my school and is in my grade I probably won't see him cuz he's in the French class so yeah and ya know I wanna know if he likes me and kellie well when she finds a boyfriend is gonna teach me the tips of being a teenage girl like the normal...like how to flirt and how to talk to people and how to not get friends and ppls numbers and all that jazzy stuff ....and ya know how to not make stupid faces when ppl stare at me cuz sometime when I'm like in the mall and ppl stare at me I make a stupid face at them even if there like cute or whatever even know there not like cute cute just ya know cute so my dad still probably thinks I'm lez and is so stuck on it cuz girls on his side r lez but I swear I'm not I can't wait to bring home a guy and prove him wrong! He doesn't even know I've ever had a crush let alone a boyfriend I never talk about boys infront of my family let alone my dad so daddy's gonna teach me how to wheely my bike ❤ so exited oh thanks 20%battery-.-

Nighty love u all❤

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