Black On White (day by day jernal)

December 23/24 2012

So yeah it's currently 2:45am I can't sleep it's the 24th and my brother thought it would be "cool" to make a fort and sleep in it in my room for the night nope he got to sleep fine as I was crammed in my closet with the doors opened! Nope I couldent sleep one because I was in my CLOSET ! Also my door was opened and I could see it was opened it was hot and uncomfortable! So like half an hour ago I got up and washed my face... When I got back into my room I stepped on Steve and he woke up, I told him to help me fix my room so I could get to sleep, I started along as he slept to fix my room.. My mother the raining hell came in and yelled at us I got into bed and am now writing this I really feel like crying I would but Steve's still in my room I can feel my chest tightening and my eyes heating up my visions getting blurry but not a peep will come out all I could think about was camp, my last schools end ear trip, lately I've been dreaming, I haven't dreamed in years. So it's kinda exiting. Ope here comes my kitty she always cheers me up and comes around to see me it hurts when he fat body steps on my boobs lol.... So I'm Kinda upset abut the holidays..I celebrate Christmas , and it's not the same with out family and spending the weeks before Christmas break at school happy with all my family ...my last school was my family like my family so skin tight close.😭 I'm freaking crying missing each and every one of them they all touched me in a way ..no no no not the dirty way like made a difference in my life❤Okay now theres years streaming down my hot face but I don't make a peep of sound..the memories flood back of karaoke on the last week before holiday break doing whatever we wanted doing as we pleased taking photos having party's and all the best as more approached my train of thought like the camp trip and after school nights out idiot moments trubles with the cops on weekends ghost spotting at the school... Oh gawd my cats laying on me eating my wad phones clawing apart my shirt.. What a brat! Lol gotta love Mohawk ❤ now it's past 3:00am.., how "fun' nope..no sleep for me I've just officially gave up on sleep so my dreams consist of skydiving (living) and my parents saying I should marry this kid ive never met like these are dreams and I haven't met my dream wanna be boyfriend...? But what if wrong with my mind I've only herd my dream patents talk about him like ohh u have to date him you'll love him! Lol idk how to spell his name idk if it's even a real name but it's something like trayton? Idk where I herd it to get the. Dream but...yeah

My arms are getting tired and I should probably try to sleep so

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Merry Christmas

Or

Happy holidays

Sorry cant spell so imma just say

Happy holidays ❤