Black On White (day by day jernal)

October 23rd 2013

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just stap :D 

So um today started off all shitty and crap ad played out to stay shitty till the bell ran and school was over....... so lets talk aout how today was shitty......

So.......I had DDA in the morning and i was doing filming for a projet and thats okay but i had to o outside for a flimin part and i opened the big heavy metal door and the corrner of it dug into my toe like that feelin where u hit it so hard u feel the door going threw ur skin and like hear it.... idk if i make and scence.... but thats okay so i dropped and layed on the dirty floor for a while btw this mornin i head band curled my hair and had to rip all my hair out and i still looked like a yeti my hair was curled so tight my hair only came to my shoulders and they where Sherly Temple curls lol..... So i looked like a yeti all day it eventually fell out a little to look only half bad and not full tilt yeti...lol so yea and also we where filming and the block changed altho the opptions r two blocks long... so the guy im debating weather i still like or not walked by and was avoiding eye contact with me and im all like oh.. :( hate u too.... that he waved at the gurl that i was workin with who was right beside me who is in his class.... So yea that happened than we dident get a ball for a long time durring break and narsh was about to kill me cuz i have mental pics of her so i was running away than like laughingly told a teacher shes gonna hurt me (as a joke) than narsh grabbed me and i fell really awkwardly like straight to my side like a log or some shit..lol than so we went in and on a good note my math and science teacher told me i did really good on my math test i had yesterday and i did do good :D but yea i have a science test next wednsday that mostly determins witch sciencece i go into next year in high school -.-

So yea so i went to my next classes the last two and yea did my work no music tho -.- 

So.... when the bell rang i went from the libarary to my locker i passed him for like the 4th time today and pretened to care about school... ahahahahahah ya those convos contain me sounding like an idiot... So i went ot my locker got my shit and put my other shit back and went to my friends ocker like always so she was taking a long time so i went with this other girl in my class like went out of school like walked threw the school yea thats what i ment... So i see him and my heart just races so i try not to look at him there for i look in the mirrors behind all the trofies so i was walking fast and i say really loudly looking in the mirror "yep i look like a yeti" and keep walking so all i hear is " Hi Stacey" in a tired sad voice and im like in my head U TALKING TO ME??!?!?!?!!!!!!!!?!?!?!??!???!!! and i make this wierd laugh not too loud so i kinda turn but dont really look at him and wave saying kinda yelling "Hi" OMg so i kinda like dyed and i was like trying not to smile and i was spazzing out on the bus beside my brother sending snapchats with both of us making funny faces... lol so yea it was actually perfect other than he dident sound happy ...oh well HE SAID MY NAME!!!!!!!!!! HE WAS TALKING TO MEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so yea that happened.....So i walked and talked to kellie her life is going well witch is good im so proud of her! shes growin up so fast :') ahahaha yea .....

so um yea one day a while back i was at school..... (no shit) and um i saw this kid and im like oh... kay..... hes cute ..he looks so innocent and sweet that he looks cute(and a little like trevor moran in his harassing walmart costumers video....O.o) ...(ignore my awkwardness) so ive kinda been like awkwardly lookin at him cuz i dont know who he is all i know is he goes to my school and is cute and hes a guy...lol so i was creeping to see who was followin my brother on instagram and i was creepin all the people following him so i was creeping this one kid and he had a picture with the cute kid in it so i saw a couple ppl tagged in it so i clicked on a user name... nope not him so i clicked on the other... yep sure enough it was him so ....i dnnt like like him i just think hes cute so now i know his name and thank god for long bios.... he actually seems pretty amazing lol but yea he was looking at me today when i was in the libary so i turned to get up and move to the tables where the teacher told us to go and i looked over like around the room and he was looking strate at me like not even hiding the face he was looking at me ..... awko O.o 

so um yea i dont even know like what happened with the first guy actually saying my name with a hi in the sentince <3 just stap i just cant even and with my strange life that cute kid looking at me like i dont even know i think im gonna like the kid from caming again just urghhhhh!!!!!!!!! so i guess he dosent hate me and the awkwardness was broken today :) 

pece watermellon <3