Black On White (day by day jernal)

Augest 16th 2013

Hey life so I know it's been a while but ya know I always think of writing but never really have much time..... With like sleep and trying to get to sleep witch is harder than you think I can like never sleep.....k so I'm actually like in a jam packed van.....going to work with kellie so there's like 8 ppl in this van with so much stuff in the trunk and like big stuff you can't see out the back window.., ya where stopped in traffic. So okay let's start wait like idk......oh I saw quiff kid like 2 days just riding around on some sort of bord idk if it was a long bord or skate bord cuz I was looking at his face to see if it was him and oh fuck it was awkward like I was with kellie this girl I don't rlly like and someone related to her so I was the older walking my dog..... Oh also gong farther back in time kellie and I went to the multi plex it brought back memories like running up the stairs together with a tube lol ya it was fun than kellie friend came ya that guy friend that she like and he likes her back and all that so ya se left and told me to figure out if he liked her and holly fuck he's confusing like worse than Katy perry with her hot 'n' cold song.....ya so we went twice the first time her friend was there the second he wasn't so ya and idfk where I am in time so yes the same day we saw quiff we went to dq..I dident get anything but I did get ice cream shoved in my face lol ya we where outside and all the tables where full so there was lots of ppl also a giant group of skater guys who I swear looked funny at me when that happened lol ...yolo? Nah but than kellie Steve and I went to a park close by with my dog chase...and we saw my homeroom teacher and her daughter who is by the way adorable ❤ so ya kellie and I have been walking lots and outside and shit so where going to work and now the vans moving again it actually have been for like a quarter of this now...k so where stopped again.... -.- okay and going again kellie gave me gum!!!!'n❤ yay so ya...and what else is there oh ya the guy kellies got a thing with ya well all his friends r being asses about it and he said that the kid I like was saying shit bout kellie so Ya I felt so guilty for liking him than Stacey came out ad wanted to talk btw Stacey is my alter ego.... So ya I told kellie how I felt so like the next day I asked if she figured out why and she told me it was rummer and ppl being stuck up teenage bitches and he was sorry and OMG I felt SO much better bout it but I'm gonna end up asking how kellie feels bout me liking him but is it bad that I'm in such a despritrite stage that because I could someone that I like I just wanna run to his house jump threw his window and like sit on him till he goes out with me like is this bad like I don't even have him on any medias and don't fucking tell me oh just add him cuz it doest go like that and if I like "accadently" see him ( stalk where he's going) ill for sure tell him like for some reason i feel so cocky bout it And just like freaking want him..... I know it's terable don't even tell me...but urghhhh just ya , just ya. I don't even know anymore like ya so idk when I can upload this due to being in a hotel tonight cuz I'm working! Like holly shit I'm being active ! It 11:13 am oh holly shit I woke up at 6:45 am !!!!!! That's earlier than on a school morning well idk bout school oh HOLLY FREAK!!!!! I MADE IT!!!!! Miss teen Alberta yep I made it past the interview and get to compete for missteenalberta February8-9 so the 8th is like learning how to walk and talk in interviews and all that fun stuff and we get fed than the next day I compete like evening gown compitition than swim suit comp than interview and I get my own makeup artest and hair dresser!!❤❤❤ so I think almost everyone's asleep but me and a couple others I can hear everyone's music over my own -.- wtf.... I have my side face leaned on a box corner like the exorcist breaking her neck

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K so I don't wanna miss it tho.... I hope to god the hotel has internet! If it dosent I swear imma shit a cow now.other than everyone in the rooms goons watch me flip out or fangurl so either way ill look like an idiot okay?. K so I think I woke up kellie so show her my fangurl problems I wish I had more new music -.- cuz there not all like super happy ones sadish ones emotinalish like good emotinal and the other like boy problem rhianna melody and the other is pure amazingness like cher Lloyd OMG cover it's beyond perfect!!!! My fav line is it is ..... That boys got some buns like wow wow wow.

Like how perfecter can that get!!!!!!ahahahahahahahah I smile everytime I hear it or laugh....

So yea idk what else to say like I went to the jumps and dident fall I haven't herd from the guy I like ...like at all... -.- I'm actually so determined to get him to like me if he dosent and like date or even hang like I have a feeling it won't last to long cuz he's a player but ya idk if I asked experienced ppl how do u keep a relationship with a player chances r it could help me if I keep my crush on him witch is bigger than ever cuz Im next to sure he likes me or liked me.....so ya I got a hope that he still likes me cuz between kellies struggle with her crush mine called her being an ass for kellies crush cuz once again he's more confusing than Katy Perry's got 'n' cold... So we were walking and se put him on speaker and we said we where coming back from dq and we said we here being fat at dq and he asked if he could come to get fat than she said we whernt there anymore and he said oh never mind so he clearly wanted to see us ........ So that made my day so I have apsalotly nothing to say like at all oh kellie and Steve got into an intence fight but I'm not gonna describe it

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Be back tonight