Black On White (day by day jernal)

March 20th 2014

Okay so many things today and this week has struck me....

And kid you not has actually changed me... changed the way I think and act along with my goals and where I want to be in my future and in my life.

I want to inspire people more than anything! I don't care if I win anything the real reward is knowing to inspire people.

So I hear lots and get told many thing about how people hate themselves..... well you can change yourself. you are perfect just the way you are, you are perfectly excepted in society and nothing is wrong with you! it's just your personal preference. if you don't like something about yourself change it! There is nothing stopping you! You can you just need to find the motivation to go out and do it. honestly I get so much criticism and get called fake all the time for constantly changing myself trying to find the me I like, there is next to nothing that I haven't changed about myself....

My hair, my face acne I changed, my health, my skin colour, my eyebrows, sometimes my nails r fake, my teeth, I wear makeup, I wear fake eyelashes, I wear heals, I have piercings, I bleach my teeth and I have totally flipped my life! I work for my body I work hard. I dedicate half an hour to an hour every night to working out, I've completely flipped my diet to be healthy and loose inches. so for people to say oh yea I wish I could be her size... you freaking can if I can you can , I work for the way I look and it's not easy! I drink lots of water and only eat clean foods (mostly)

You can change yourself. like there are so many ways to change yourself, but it you do.... do it for yourself no one else. don't do it for anyone's liking but to make yourself happy.

Many celebrity's get so much criticism and hate for changing themselves like nicki minaj, she's happy with herself the only difference from normal people is the extent she went to and she's happy with herself witch really shows and I love her for that! same for lady gaga I freaking love her she is so happy and struts her stuff she may be wearing a meat dress but because she's confident it convinces people it looks good and props to her she is my inspiration! I love her choices and individuality and wish to be like her one day.

I watched over 3 hours of weight loss videos before I worked out and it is possible you just need to find motivation and learn to love yourself or you won't have the inspiration and motivation to believe in yourself and make it possible.

I love each and every one of you, you are all perfect and I hope if there is something about you that you don't like you chose to change it for yourself and make yourself the you you want to be ❤️

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