Black On White (day by day jernal)

December 16th 2013

So I Dident actually know how much family stuff got to me and how much it could really change a person.... I sassed my brothers home room teacher... woopwoopsy well it was was bad day cuz of the weekend and everything than narsh pushed my red lip stain onto my face and it um stained my face red so I was saying fuck.,,, alot... so that teacher came in and yelled at me and I kinda was a giant bitch and sassed at her .,....

But worst mother fucking part,.... my alarm went off at 6:50am so I turned off the alarm for my next one at 7 to go off and in that time I fell into a deep dream.... Trevor Moran was in it I met him we where walking in the sand after a wierd meet up and when my alarm went off I could have closed my eyes and the dream continue but no I had to wake up -.- that fucked up my life right than and there!

I seriously love him so much it's not even funny he's the most perfectest creation to walk the earth I know every word to every video he's made and has been in if I ever meet him in person I WILL die!

Currently he's subductivly singing jingle bell rock to me 😍 lol jk but anything he does is suductive to me cuz he's perfect and everything about him is godly !!!

So I'm excepting that in my reality I'm not over that cute kid ( as in fetuses friend) witch just urgh! like I don't even know that's the second dream and last time I said I was over him and back to that happy camper I had a dream about him so I'm guessing its a sign I just hope he Dosnt hate me cuz he's actually like quite good looking but what he said was really rude..... but he Dosnt anymore so idk me myself I've never talked to him .... so I hope he Dosnt hate me... I can never grow to talk to him or anything.. idk my dreams telling me that I'm not over him but my inner disabled tells me I still have something big for happy camper. ( by disabled I mean always falls (as in for guys that I can't get with))

Now that ppl know bout this I feel like I can't say everything too much even some of this and feeling of things I can't say due too ppl know bout u ....

I still have to keep secrets from some bout others that I could say if ppl Dident know me or characters in this

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