Black On White (day by day jernal)

April 22 2013

So I know I haven't said a peep in days, weeks ...long time . Well tonight I can't sleep I feel like shit and nothing more..the lowest loneliest I can get some part feel good but theirs always the flip side to push me deeper into the dirt getting covered in more shit to never be found. So lets talk good.... I looked at quiff today on my way to the change room he was by the girls change room but in the gym, he's really fit... But he looked at me and my heart dident skip a beat I dident get butterflys.... I'm over him ❤ but now who do I like I'm over Trevor.. Quiff too.... Here there's no one for me... Got my fortune palm reading done... It said travel is for the better ill meet the perfect guy... Rlly? It said soon and he would be admiring me... I think ill read it again tomorrow.. It said lots of twisted shit my dreams... But, nothing yet. I guess I'm getting impatient I also played frisby with my brother and dog. On the bad side I'm bord I'm lonely, stressed, tired ,parents fighting. Can't think strength.Im so mixed emotions like I'm glad I got over him but what's to look forwards to? like i guess I just gotta wait .. I have no one to creep no Trevor 😞I'm doing a science thing cutting and dissecting lungs and hearts.. I'm exited, am I gonna be a killer when I'm older? I Sure as hell hope not. I feel bad for Steve I feel as if he might turn to Suiside or self harm... I might feel the same about everything but the show goes on. I have to stick it out I just feel so bad for steve.. I need to just talk to kellie before I leave on Wednesday for Edmonton for comp... Early on the morning -.-

Well I should try to sleep... To wake up tomorrow... I guess.. Well at least I have you ❤

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