Black On White (day by day jernal)

February 16th 2014

Shit son!!

I learned how to do shit with my life thanks to him ❤ thought me how to ski and that's what I did for the past two days. I really fucking like him and I totally ranted to his brother about that! opes.

Oh well but like shit it's unreal!!

Good nights and sweetheart every night skyped till 3am u know just Perfect! he understands.,. but he will never understand how much I really like him.. and no one really will tbh just like nope.

And he's rlly respectful and there for my mom likes him, he's really hot... yep I said it he's a total babe!😍

God knows how I got so freaking lucky to get him and say its official and not just a dream to never happen.

And like idk.

He knows I've never had my first kiss.

And he knows he's the first guy I've ever hugged.

And everything like that he knows.

I don't call him hot or tell him he's a total babe. that's it tho. I'm kinda quite opened with him and that could be a bad thing.

Fucking I don't like Steve tho!

"Don't pull anything"

*scares him away and he sits far away From on the life*

-.-

Like frick yo!

And his friends where like "kiss her"

And made it a little weird.. O.o

And he total respect the fact that I've never kissed a guy.

And my god I would let him cuz yea he's perfect. I actually kinda want him to be my first. sorrynotsorry I know that could be a bad thing but frick I rlly like him like a lot. it's hard to explain.

But yepp that's it.

I don't know he makes me feel important.

Yes sometimes I want to strangle him and lock him in my closet!

But he should be free.... Like on a leash that extends 😂😂😂 jk jk jk

No if he wants to stay he will ( fingers crossed he will)

He was worth the chase tho... yep that long ass 7month chase was worth it!!! so those of u, there is always hope!

Like look at me....

I just hope this can last... and be real, and something! not like my other "relationships" where literally we don't even talk...

And I'm proud to be with him... and I know he's the same. (pretty sure)

But he did happen for a reason...

Lets hope it's worth it.

I'm gonna make this as worth wile as it can be. (I hope, cuz I'm actually a fetus so yea)

And frick ya. dance friend took a photo of us dancing and posted it in a collage so I screen shotted it and cropped it and lightened it (creeper) and he is taller than me!!! and by enough to notice!😂😂

He's just so perfect and I hope shit can work...

Down fall (only)

I keep getting the boy talk and from literally ducking everyone!

But I'm gonna just blast my music and sleep so

✌❤🍉

🌙💤