Black On White (day by day jernal)

April 1st

So ummm...... that ex... the one I fuckinh like love or whatever.....

On skype..... till 1:45am from like 10 till then like idk

Everything!

Like we talked about the break up, and like everything!

I still had things I Dident say that I rlly wanted to.

He's so sweet! he calls me pretty and beautiful and gorgeous and treats me like a princess! idk It's started on snapchat.....

He had gotten into my snapchat bestfriends! so I told him and he flipped out "fuck ya!!!!!!!!! I love you best friend"

So I said " love you too bestie"

Than he sent a face so I sent back

"Ouch Friend zoning hard core eh?"

Than he said "hell no"

And later on that night....

He was complimenting me and all that and I sent him " I miss us" and he sent back "same"

And it went from there.....

Before that I had asked if he had friend zoned me..😂😂😂

I'm actually such a friking rebel!

Oh yea I called him babe and I call him hot and everything like that! I'm more opened towards him and I like it! I swear infront of him now ope woopsy.

He's just so perfect!

And I tell him.

He compliments me lots and also teeses me witch idk it's cute tho.

And he's just so amazing like

Ahaha total chick moment but talking to him alone for many hours just starring at his face and his bare shoulders and arms.

Like omf just hot fuck!

And he was flexing and showing me his muscles like the sexy cocky asses I kill for.

Like idk I WANT him to be my first kiss...

Idk I've never been able to actually state that but it's so true I could never picture it with anyone else.

And the day I get it i hope for him to be the guy.

Right now that's who I like and that's who I rlly rlly like.

I could say I "love" him.

But it'll never be true yet.

Sure he says it friendlily but I don't think it that way cuz I rlly ducking like him and I'd kill to be with him again!

I don't rlly care how hard I'm gonna try but ya I'm gonna get rlly close to him and tell him everything I need to and ask him what I need to ask.

Like

Hey r u wheeling me?

Do u see us being a thing again?

And

I still want my first kiss to be with you.

Yepp....

I'm hoping we can talk again tomorrow.

And u know he has a sensitive side that kills me!

He's great with kids, like he introduced me to a little girl in his house. and he says how he crys and ya!

Fuck he makes me feel so good about myself and never fails to make me smile.