Black On White (day by day jernal)

29th problums

So yeah who gives a fuck if my spellings shit! You know I'm in a shitty state of mind but all the public wants is the juice so yeah you can get it! Golly fuck I would be dead with out my music... So what's wrong Stacey?

Well I bet I'm gonna fail freaking gymnastics and I'm clearly the best fucking one! And me failing that's not me and especially something I'm ACTUALLY good at! So yeah I'm an OCD perfectionist! Yeah I stop and nothing less than perfection! I had to walk out of the room I was under that much stress just hoping and pleading my name wasn't called to perform next! Like and leggit I accidentally dropped my foot in a scorpion and I'm all like fuck it! I'm scratching it and I'm still sore so I'm just not in my element forgetting every fucking move!! Like u can't even tell how pissed I am and i know I'm defiantly having to perform tomorrow and people are like ur so flexible and good at this it's scary but I'm fucking pissed and stressed laying in bed music blasted I've already broke a pair of ear buds blasting it so fucking loud at like 10:32pm dark and fuck I'm not sleeping gonna be tired as fuck have a head ache now crying holly shit radio it's NICKI MANAJ ❤❤❤ AHHHH!!!❤ fuck I don't care if people hear my blasted music I bet my brother in the next room can! That made me feel better so imma fucking wing it! I'm pretty good at that lol most days lol fuck no spell cheak I spelt it dayz! Gawd! Va va voom ! Nicki manaj! So half day tomorrow cat find a outfit well I did but not me like it screams I work in a office. -.- fucking dress code! I HATE IT!!! Every non pg word every cant even describe my hatred for the dress code! Fuck I NEED A LIFE! NEED A BOTFRIEND!! Like really ducking badly what the hell ducking? Maybe with a cute quiff lol ! I just wanna go home!! Like only rhianna rude boy makes me stop from crying breaking me! Well saving me from the tears ! I don't want to do this! Now the tears are coming! Shit! It's way fucking better home! Sorry about the F bombs lol I told ya I swear and kinda bad but I can't help it I'm in a bad mood but see what ya do to me lol.

I can't write on my other book I'm stuck at a stupid moment that involves me to think and not just write as I go -.- how the hell did I get myself into that? Lol I hope tomorrow will be better❤😭

Hope me best!😊 (fake smile)

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Thanks for being here for me

Year if joy

Holly shit the beginning of a song has a plate smashing that blasted in my ears holly shit like at the beginning of the song so shit my hearts racing!

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