castles → lil peep (completed)

Awful Things

Chapter Six

I didn't have the strength to open my eyes but I knew I was awake. Sharp pains felt partly numbed and there was someone holding my hand. The thing that stuck out the most was the clinical smell and the repetitive beeping of a heart monitor.

Was I in a hospital?

I started to freak out as flashbacks flooded my brain and I could feel a panic attack coming. With all the will power I had within me, I forced my eyes open and immediately regretted it. Harsh lights were directly above me and stung like a bitch. Again however, I opened my eyes and adjusted to the glare.

"Oh my fuck you're awake"

The hand that held my own belonged to none other than Mr Gustav Åhr. The one person I didn't want to see right now.

"Why are you here?"

It didn't mean to come out so rude and luckily for me he knew that.

"You smashed through a glass railing and fell two stories"

Slowly, it all came back to me. The wild goose chase in the service station and T crashing into me. Poor guy must be beating himself up right now. What if he thinks he killed me?

"Oh yeah, that hurt like a bitch"

He chuckled lightly but I knew he didn't really mean it. His eyes were puffy from crying and he was clutching my phone as if he was restraining the urge to throw it. What happened?

"Are you okay?"

"I should be asking you that"

"I'm not the one who's been crying over a girl who's been treating you like shit"

"You haven't been treating me like shit...."

He held my hand firmly and stared into my eyes.

"You have every right to be fucking mad at me"

"No I don't, you're a hot guy Gus, I shouldn't have been so butt hurt over you having a girlfriend"

"I shouldn't have kept it from you"

He had no idea how thankful I was for him not mentioning how I confessed my love for him.

"Why do you have my phone?"

"I need to talk to you about that"

Panic filled every part of me but I knew what was coming. I could tell from his disappointing and angry expression John must've called or texted.

I couldn't help but start to cry as he moved closer to me.

"Does he really treat you like that? Like you're his sex slave?"

What was just a few tears turned into wracking sobs and I could feel his arms wrap around me.

"I'm sorry Gus, I really am."

"Shush it's okay, I'm going to help you"

"What about Layla? I'm sure she won't be pleased with you helping out a random girl behind her back"

"Fuck Layla, you need support and fuck you're gonna get it you know what I mean?"

"I think fucking Layla is your job"

After a five second silence we burst out laughing and the tears we've both shed soon turned into tears of laughter and happiness.

"Rest up missy, I'm going to get you your nurse"

"Wait"

I reached out and grabbed his hand.

"Don't leave"

"I have to get a nur-"

"I hate hospitals"

This caught his attention as he sat back down; clearly drawn into what I had to say.

"Why?"

I tried to laugh but the reason behind my fear crept out and shame once again filled me.

"Before I was given up for adoption, my grandad died of cancer and while I was grieving next to his body alone......the doctor raped me. I was 5"

"You're officially more fucked up than I am"

I laughed dryly and took it as a compliment. From the way he said it  I could tell he didn't meet people like me often.

Gus pressed the call button so he could stay with me as a male nurse came in and checked my vitals. I could feel my whole body tense and Peep quickly noticed.

"Hey, where's T and Horse?"

"They're in the bus out front but don't ask why they're not here because they won't tell me"

The male nurse finished up and called in the doctor who was thankfully a woman.

"Hey hunny, I'm Dr.Lucia. You had a pretty nasty fall but it seems you've fully recovered in just two days"

"TWO DAYS?? That means Gus the first show was yesterday!"

"It's okay I put it on hold"

"Why?"

"Because I wanted to be here with you"

"Are you two together?"

"Nah we just friends"

"Looks like you can go Miss McDan, but Sir I need you to come with me to fill out some forms"

"Okay, Em I'll be right back"

"Okay Gussie"

I sat squirming in the hospital bed, dying to change into the clothes that I could see on the table next to Peep's seat.

"Well hello beautiful"

"John?"