castles → lil peep (completed)

Pain

Chapter Sixteen

I couldn't handle this, not now, not today. I was hunched over the toilet, puking my fucking guts out; not because I was sick, but because I was crying so hard.

Gus wasn't up yet as it was quite early but I knew T was up and could probably hear everything. I threw up again but could only manage bile and stomach acid.

"Lil Lady ,You okay in there?"

"Yeah, I think"

"Can I come in?"

I reached over and unlocked the door to which T came in and immediately pulled my hair back as I felt another gurgle in my stomach.

"Are you sure you're okay? I'm pretty sure you shouldn't be throwing up like this"

"It's just nerves"

"Why are you nervous?"

Bingo. The worst question anyone could ask me.

"Today is John's Trial"

"Oh"

Once I could feel no more coming to the surface, I flushed the toilet and stood up with the help of T. I stumbled a bit and felt woozy but I found my balance.

"Are you sure you're okay?"

"Yep, I think I'm just going to lay down for a bit"

"Stay strong Lil Lady"

I headed to the back of the bus where Gus was still sleeping like the goth angel sinner he is. I tried to be as quiet as I could but I soon heard him stirring.

"Morning babe"

"Sorry if I woke you up but what the heck am I supposed to wear at a bloody trial?"

"Wear whatever makes you feel comfortable and confident"

He came over and wrapped his arms around my waist as I blushed.  I ended picking out jeans with a t-shirt and blazer. I hope this is okay.

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I was standing with my lawyer only a few feet away from John; the man who destroyed me.

The lawyers and judge were talking when I was called up to the stands to present my case. Deep breaths Em, you can do this. I made eye contact with John. I can't do this.

His lawyer began to interrogate me and I looked at my shaking hands as I answered every question he asked.

I could feel a panic attack coming on.

I looked towards the stands and met eyes with Gus who I knew could tell exactly how I was feeling. He made breathing motions with his hands and I immediately felt better.

Before I could think, the time had come for the jury to decide John's fate. A middle aged woman stepped up and announced their decision.

"We find John Garray.....Guilty"

In that moment, I felt like I could scream out of happiness and I could tell Gus wanted to also. I can't believe he'll finally be gone........for a whole 10 years!

We were cleared out of the courtroom where Gus picked me up and spun me around like an idiot while grinning like a maniac. I leaned down and kissed him with all the passion I had. We've been through so much together and I'm certain I'd been dead by if it wasn't for him.

Screams filled the air all around us.

Gus put me down as we watched John escape from the officers who were escorting him the the van. Gus  tried to pull me away but I was frozen on the spot.

He took one of the officer's guns and  aimed at us before taking a shot.