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he was a druggie,
she was his new dealer.
he knew she could save him,
she knew she needed him.
rip gustav åhr 1/11/1996 - 15/11/2017 <3
(pls note i wrote this when i was 12/13 so it's super bad and messy and unrea...
The sound of the annoying alarm went off, waking Gus and I up at the same time as we groaned in sync; today was the day that he was leaving for tour. I didn't want to get up, in fact I didn't want today to exist, but I still got up because we didn't need the stress of being late as well.
I packed up his late minuet things, knowing he could just do the morning routine things on the tour bus. Placing all the luggage by the door, i signed as it began to register in my brain today will be the last day I'll see him in three months. Three whole fucking months.
It's going to be literal hell.
I felt a pair of arms wrap around my waist and a chin rest itself on my shoulder.
"Morning baby girl"
"Morning Gussie"
"I don't wanna leave you"
"I know you don't but just think about all those people who can't wait to see you for just those few hours"
"I love our fans"
"Our?"
"Any fan who doesn't like you isn't really a fan baby, if they were they would support you"
Before I could respond, Gus' phone buzzes which told us it was time to go; it already hurts.
"Come on baby we gotta go"
"Gimme a minuet"
While he put all his bags in the Benz , I slipped on a random hoodie (which was probably his) and my vans; it's gonna be a hoodie and sweatpants kinda day. Getting in the car I grabbed Gus' hand, knowing this was the last time I would be able to in a long ass time.
"Baby stop squeezing my hand so hard"
"Shit sorry, it's just gonna be the last time I'll be able to in ages"
"I'm really gonna miss you baby girl"
"I'm gonna miss you too Gussie"
We pulled up to the airport where we could see management all waiting for us, someone of them looking pissed. I'm not surprised at their sour expressions, we were half an hour late.
Blame LA traffic.
"Sorry everybody, traffic was a Bitch"
Gus and I got out the car and linked hands but got stopped by his manager who looked stressed as fuck.
"You guys gotta say your goodbyes here because if you wait till we're at the gate we're gonna miss our plane"
"Dude are you sure she can't come with us, there's gotta be a way she can come?"
"We've talked about this Peep and the answers no, it's nothing personal Em, it's just how it is"
Gus started to protest but I pulled him back and placed a small kiss on his lips.
"It's okay, go have fun babe. I'll be fine"
"You don't seem fine baby girl, you're crying"
Somehow A few tears rolled down my face without me even knowing it; tears that Gus wiped away with his thumb.
"Come on Peep we gotta go"
"He's right Gus, go. I love you"
"And I love you"
Leaving a quick kiss on my forehead, I watched him begrudgingly leave me behind with his suitcase; looking back at me with a pained expression until I was probably out of sight.
This is gonna be a lot harder than I thought.
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I thought the first thing I would do at home without Gus was cry, not throw up. Spending my morning alone with my head in the toilet was not something I planned on doing, not at all. Deciding it was probably just the loneliness (I've been alone for an hour, pathetic I know) I tweeted out hoping a friend would come to my aid.
@lil_em_ Who in LA that can bring me food and keep me company? I hate this already and it's only been an hour💔 19K likes 12.4K replies @lilpeep - miss you baby girl💔 @user - awwwwww ^ @user - more like ew ^ @mythkillar - WISH I COULD BEST FREN @user - love you em💖💖 @emmalitarose- on my way hun w/ McDonald's @user - my two faves gonna be chilling together 😫💕^
I laughed at a few hate comments but my heart lit up and Emma's reply, why am I only just finding out she's in LA? I swear if anyone kept that information from me ima stab them, my girls in LA with McDonald's.
That's when the door buzzed.
"Hello?"
"It's your girl with burgers"
"Get your ass up here"
I pressed the button that let her up and waited by the door for her to knock, in fact I had my head pressed against it so I could hear if she was near. Again, pathetic.
Emma didn't even get the chance to knock before I threw the door open and yanked her in, enveloping her in my arms. I missed my cousin so much, even if she wasn't biologically my cousin.
"Nice to see you too"
"I missed you Flemma, now gimme my food....you got my usual right?"
"Yep, cheese burger, large fries, 9 chicken nuggets and a chocolate milkshake"
"Oh my god I love you"
"Go pick something on Netflix, I'm gonna go get us some ketchup"
"They don't call you ketchupemma for nothing"
"True"
I snapped a quick picture of her in my kitchen and posted it to Instagram with a smiley face and love heart emoji as the caption; I really need to be more active on social media.
That's when a text came through.
Gussie🌹❤️ : I've been replaced by my own Flemma, how typical💔
To : Gussie🌹❤️ Sorry boo, luv u tho😍
Gussie🌹❤️ : Plane journeys suck without you baby girl
To : Gussie🌹❤️ That's ironic cause some things won't get sucked with me gone ;)
Gussie🌹❤️ : 😂😂😂😂
My phone notified me that he had posted a picture on Instagram and I didn't hesitate to check it out.
Lilpeep
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Lilpeep - my girl so far away already I can feel my little heart breaking💔
I miss him so much already
——————————— Tried a new thing out with the twitter and ig posts, do you like it and do you guys want these short a/n @ the end of each part?
