castles → lil peep (completed)

Veins

Chapter seventy eight

I stared at the empty paper subway wrappers in front of me as I smoked the last of my blunt, it's been several hours...maybe I should go talk to Gus? Being borderline high always makes me think straight it's insane.

I got up, throwing away all the trash before changing out of my hoodie and into a loose plain white crop top but keeping on my black sweatpants. Despite everything, Gus was right about weed helping with the cramps so walking wasn't too painful anymore; yeah I should definitely go talk to him.

Barefoot I headed out of our room (not forgetting the key card) and across the hall to Goth's room, still knocking twice even though they would be okay with me just walking in. To my surprise it was goth who answered the door looking just as surprised as I was, knowing him he was probably high on weed too.

"Hey, is Gus here?"

"Yeah come in, how you holding up?"

"Who knew weed helps with cramp pains?"

He ended our conversation with a slight laugh as I walked into his identical hotel room, quickly spotting Gus laying on the bed with a cigarette dancing between his fingers. I must've been standing there for roughly five minuets until I realised he wasn't going to notice me anytime soon; I wonder what had him so deep in thought?

"I didn't know you still fucked with tabacco"

The sound of my voice brought him out of his head and he jumped up, putting his cig out in the ashtray as he did so.

"I don't usually but I couldn't be fucked with anything else"

"Can we talk? Like on the balcony?"

"Yeah, yeah sure"

I followed him out onto the balcony and shut the sliding door behind me, talking a seat on the plastic chair opposite Gus. Before talking though, I pulled out some pre rolled blunts and passed one to him along with my lighter after lighting my own. The way the sight of weed made his eyes light up truly made me giggle.

"I'm not gonna sugar coat it, you're an absolute dickhead for leaving me like that"

All he did was look down so I continued.

"But...I understand why you left and don't blame you for it, like I don't blame you for it. It was going to happen one way or another, unless you wanted to keep it, so you just sped up the inevitable"

Sensing that he wanted to speak now, I took a break to take a puff of my blunt.

"I just wish it happened differently you know what I mean? Making the decision together, being there for you when you took that pill yourself"

"I know but that's just our life Gus, it's problematic as fuck"

"You ain't wrong about that"

We quietly laughed together and hit our blunts once again.

"Just don't feel bad about it baby, the cramps and bleeding will be over by tomorrow and we can pretend it never happened. As soon as your tour is over and you're back at home, we can finally get in the studio"

"We?"

"I've decided that this whole artist thing could be quite fun"

"You're not serious, really?"

"Yep and I've even come up with my own name, hows lil shawty?"

"It hella suits you baby girl, I can't wait to collab with you"

"Me too Gussie, hey when are you moving onto the next country?"

"Two days, why?"

"Shit can I borrow your laptop? I need to book me a fight home"

"You're not staying?"

"There's no room on the tour bus remember?"

"Oh yeah...I don't want you to leave though"

"I don't want to leave either but Emma's at our place and she's probably dying to know everything"

As I finished my sentence, my phone started ringing which told me Emma wanted to FaceTime; speak of the devil. I obviously answered and said hello but passed it over to Gus, knowing how long it had been since he had seen her.

Is it weird that I low key ship my boyfriend with my cousin?

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*Goth's POV*

I looked over at them on the balcony, together laughing and just generally being the cutest couple on the planet; god I wanted that. I wasn't in love with Em, she was best friend and only my best friend, it's the type of relationship she had with Gus that I was jealous of. I just want someone who I can love unconditionally, knowing that they feel the same.

"You okay Goth?"

I was so deep in thought that I didn't notice Em had come back in and sat next to me.

"What's it like? Being in such a special kind of relationship?"

"I can't explain it really, it's just...right and perfect and everything you ever wanted but never knew you needed. Why'd you ask?"

"I just want that with someone, that irreplaceable connection with a person you can trust. I want a soulmate"

"There's a person for everyone Goth, sometimes it takes a while to find them and most the time you don't even expect it but I promise you it's worth the wait"

"I guess......."

"I can set you up with a friend of mine if you want, her names Ellise and I think you two would be adorable"

Pulling out her phone Em showed me a picture of her friends and man did I get hella heart eyes, she was so beautiful and I could already feel myself liking her.

"She's...........wow"

"When Tours over I'll hook you two up"

"Em you are the fucking best, love you bestie"

"Love you too Goth"