castles → lil peep (completed)

Give U The Moon

Chapter forty six

If there's one thing I hate more than being woken up too early, it's not being able to sleep in the first place. You would think it would be because of the fun Gus and I had earlier but nope, for reasons I didn't know I couldn't shut my eyes for more than a second. God fucking damn it.

Without waking Gussie up, I tugged on some sweatpants and a stray t-shirt before tip toeing down stairs. I didn't know what to do, I couldn't watch TV because that would to be too loud; most things would be too loud.

So where do I go? The drinks cabinet and boy did I get heart eyes when I say the full bottle of Hennessy. Bingo.

I sat down on the couch and scrolled through twitter while drinking the magic beverage like water. I know it's wrong to get drunk alone at your boyfriend's mother's during the early hours of the morning but what else am I supposed to do?

That's when an idea struck me.

I went over to my rucksack that was by the door and threw in the Hennessy, my phone and my keys. Slipping on my vans and Gus' jacket I picked up my bag and headed out; I hope I'm back before anyone wakes up because Gus would never forgive me for scaring him. Since that one night last year when I collapsed he's been terrified every time I've left alone at night.

After a short walk I arrived on the deserted beach where the moon shone and waved crashed soothingly against the shore. I took off my shoes so I could feel the sand between my toes as I found a spot by some rocks to sit down. Taking swigs of the Hennessy I played some of Gus music as I looked at the ocean. This is what peace felt like.

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"Ma'am? It's time to wake up"

My head felt X10 it's size and I had the mother of all headaches; where was I and why did it sound like I was by ocean?

"Huh? What time is it? Where am I?"

"Ma'am It's 12:03pm and you're on the beach having not paid the $10"

I shot up wide eyed at the time, 12:03pm? Shit shit shit oh my god shit; Gus would be up by now. I chucked a few dollars at the officer before checking my phone;

-10 missed calls from Gussie🌹
-3 misses calls from Liza⭐️
-8 voicemails from Gussie🌹❤️
-3 voicemails from Liza⭐️
-7 texts from Gussie🌹❤️
-2 texts from Liza⭐️

I swung my bag over my shoulder and picked up my shoes as I made a run for the house. This wasn't supposed to happen, I wasn't supposed to fall asleep goddam it. I stopped outside a 7/11, I do owe Liza a new bottle of Hennessy after all; taking as little time as possible I shoved the new bottle in my bag (after I bought it) and took off running again.

I soon crashed through to front door out of breath and sweating like crazy; what I saw though broke my heart. Gus was pacing up and down with tears in his eyes and Liza was on the couch trying to calm him down; both their heads snapped in my direction at my loud arrival.

"Look Gussie I'm sorry I didn't me-"

I didn't finish my sentence, he came up to me and gave me the tightest embrace; it was like he was scared I would slip through his fingers. I didn't hesitate to hug back, gripping onto his sweatshirt as he did the same to his jacket that I was wearing.

"I'm so so sorry Gussie, I didn't mean to"

"Where were you all night?"

"I went down to the beach because I couldn't sleep and accidentally passed out"

Gus pulled away and looked at me with concern and fright in his eyes.

"Passed out? Why did you pass out? Did you get drugged?"

"You can calm down Gus, I passed out because I took the Hennessy from your mother's drink cabinet with me"

I went over to Liza who looked shocked at my actions, I don't blame her, I stole a bottle of expensive alcohol.

"Liza, I hope you can forgive me for my actions. I'm embarrassed and ashamed of myself for what I did"

I presented her with the new bottle of Hennessy and prayed that she would somewhat understand. Liza looked between the bottle and I before giving me a big hug, a pat on the back and a small peck on the head.

"It's okay sweetie but I'm pretty sure Peep is still shaking. Go talk to him while I order pizza"

I nodded my head and silently thanked her for the pizza, she really was great. I'm a bit jealous how nice Gus' upbringing must've been with Liza around. I walked up to him; he was sitting on the window ledge, staring out of the window in silence and didn't notice me standing next to him.

"Babe, I really am sorry"

Gus looked up at me and hugged my waist like a child; that was all I needed to know. I wrapped my arm around his shoulder and kissed his lips as he looked up at me.

"It's okay Em, I smother you so the only time you have to your self is at night"

"Oh baby no, you don't smother me at all. I was restless and bored, I didn't know what to do so I got drunk"

"That I can relate too except I would take Xanax with it"

"None of that anymore though, just your daily prescription to help you get off for good"

"I know but I haven't taken it today"

"You can take it tonight, it'll help you sleep"

"After all this time I'm still surprised how much you care and love for me baby"

"You're so silly, silly. I love you to the moon and back"

"The moon? Baby ima give you the moon"

"And ima give you the stars"