castles → lil peep (completed)

Neverland

Chapter twenty nine

*Six months after break*

After living in LA for so long, I never realised how much I missed Long Island; especially the south side. I remembered being 13 ,sneaking on the beach and just taking pictures of the sea. It was beautiful.

I've also missed my skateboard, just riding around town with music blaring. The freedom of being a teenager, now I'm depressed and trying not to do so many drugs. 21st century am I right?

I tied my now purple hair back and grabbed my backpack before shoving my huge Bluetooth speaker in there and picking up my board. With everything going on I needed to let loose. I put on his crybaby album and headed outside; my apartment hadn't improved at all since I left but I'm lucky I can still get in.

The Long Island breeze and the gentle sun complimented the soft sound of his voice. I knew going out on my board was the right thing to do, I didn't know why but I had a feeling something was going to happen.

Ghost Girl came on and I immediately started singing. It was a wonderful feeling and one of his best songs. This is the feeling of peace.

"I'm in love with a ghost girl, all alone in a lonely world"

As I pasted a 7/11, I heard a few guys laughing and a few sang the next line.

"How can I forget that face? I don't even know your name"

I turned to smile at them, any fan of his was a friend of mine. I saw two guys I didn't recognise, T (who's eyes widened as soon as he saw me) and him. His eyes met mine and I'm pretty sure they mirrored my own : wider than the women in Walmart.

I was so surprised I didn't see the curb and went flying off my board and into a bush. Well fuck me. With my bag weighing me down, I had to except the familiar tattooed hand that was outstretched towards me. It pulled me up with ease and I was stood there awkwardly with my ex (who I was still in love with) in front of me.

"Thanks"

"That's alright.....um yeah"

"Yeah, see ya around"

But then T stepped in.

"Nah bruh, you two clearly still love each other so lil lady you're coming with us and you guys are gonna talk"

I could see on Gus' face that he wanted to throw himself and T in front of a bus and I couldn't blame him. I hate it when other people are right.

"Okay"

"Wait really?"

"Yes Gus, really"

I might not have been mentally prepared for the awkwardness that was about to come but I was ready to face him; T was right about everything......I still loved him.

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Turns out T's way of us talking was locking us in a room and not letting us out until we made up. It was quite disturbing how similar Gus and T's way of thinking was. It was kinda funny how I was in this exact position just 6 months ago; the thought even made me laugh out loud.

"I know what you're think, how we've been in this situation before?"

"Yeah, I'm getting major Déjà vu right now"

"Me too, we were even talking about the same thing"

"Oh yeah"

We laughed for a minute but then reality had to be an ass and it died out. This had to end, whatever this is. We were avoiding the truth, it was pathetic and just annoying.

"Let's be real Gus, what we were was fucking amazing but problematic and shit. I have my problems and you have yours but we were so wrapped up in making each other happy, we forgot about ourselves"

"I totally agree girl but I never stopped loving you. I know you don't feel the same way but I would take you back in a heart beat"

"Don't feel the same way? Gus I said I wanted a break from you I never said I stopped loving you. I was wrong to think taking a step back from the one person who could help would work. I've missed you like crazy and it made me realise how much I fucking need you"

"Are you saying what I think you're saying baby girl?"

"Oh my god just come and kiss me already you big goof"

You know when you're in high school,  your crush kisses you and sparks fly? Well I'm in a bus and feels like it's the Fourth of July right now. It would've been better (if that was possible) if T hadn't burst in looking silly as fuck.

"See I told you two you would be fine"

"Calm down T, we still got a lot to work on"

"Does Peep know that?"

"Yeah babe does Peep know that?"

"You two are wack"

"But you love us"

"Got that right"