missed you
finally. i get to see my grandma again. she just arrived at the hospital in seoul and has settled in. this means i can visit her. i hopped in the car with dad and drove to the hospital.
as we got closer to her room, my heart was beating so fast. it's been so long since i last visited her. i missed her so much. it might seem like i'm over reacting but she made a huge impact on my life. she was there when i needed someone the most and knew how i felt even by one stare. she reminded me so much of my mother. they were mother and daughter, i wish i got to build up my relationship bond with mother but she left too soon.
i slowly opened the door and saw her lying down staring out the window. she turned her head to face me as i came closer to her, while dad gave us a moment and went outside. she smiled at me and held my hand. the moment she held my hand, i broke into tears.
i guess i never really accepted the fact that she really is sick and that i was really keeping in how i felt, pretending that i'm really okay.
"i missed you... so much," i sobbed as she wiped my tears away.
later on we kept talking just catching on..
