Warning: Includes triggering imagery.
I slide the blade across my upper arm again, again and again. The stinging pain numbed my mental one. I leaned my head against the bathroom wall. My body shook and I cried violently yet quietly.
Why?! Why was it always me! I didn't just torture a man... No, I already killed my best friend and I would have to help to murder or even murder two people again, giving the father to Voldemort.
I'm just a monster, not more.
If I'd kill myself right now no one would care... Snape would be mad because of my position but he could easily come up with some lie why I did it... Maybe I should just end it all. There was no hope for me, no chance... But then again the professor might never like me... Even insults me all the time... But he still deserves to be treated with love and respect... Because obviously, that was what he had been lacking all of this time.
"(Y/N)! You selfish idiot! Stop crying about how bitterly unfair your life is and get it together! When this all is over you can still do it you can still take the pain away but right now the order needs you, you might not have any other values but the order needs you. Stay cold, stay mean... But give the potions master some of the love he deserves! No matter how bad he treats you! It is probably not even his fault because it is a result of what happened to him in the past... " The little voice in my had probably being my conscience told me.
I stepped in front of the mirror cleaning my face and my arm up.
Literally setting myself a deadline in my head.
Severus pov.
It is not my problem if she cries or not! And she just has to go to that abduction.
Why do I care? "Because she cares for you because she treats you with respect, she's very kind and loving when it comes to you. Merlin! She even preferred to spend Christmas with you, bringing you a gift explaining to you how much you matter to her!" My subconsciousness told me... The only one that ever cared about me like that had been
...
Lily.
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