Only his surrogate

Fourty nine.

- April -

It was 6pm by the time everyone left, my family left at 4 as they had to drive home but I promised we would go visit soon enough when I felt comfortable enough to travel a long distance with the twins.

Jane cleared everything up whilst myself and Leyton got Alfie and Aubrey bathed and ready for bed, I've always read routine is key. Even though they are still young, it's great to try that way they'll get used to a certain routine in no time.

Laying in bed after the first night feed of the night I got my planner out, my wedding planner I started making ideas.
"Where did you want to get married?" I ask as Leyton sits beside me.
"Wherever you are I am, this is your special day" he placed a light kiss upon my fore head.
"The islands of Mauritius? It's incredibly beautiful ..." I smile as I imagine what it would be like.

"If that's where you want it ... that's where it will be .."
"So much planning to do. And we haven't got a date!"
"Three months?"
Was he kidding me? "What? Three months?"
"A long engagement is great, but I don't want to waste no time in calling you my wife" he winked.

God he was so freaking hot.

"Three months it is."

I wrote that in big letters. Three months. And loads of planning, maybe I need a wedding planner?

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I hired a wedding planner it was the best option especially when all my attention was on Aubrey and Alfie at the minute.
She was fabulous though always made sure I had the last word before making the bookings. It certainly took weight off of my shoulders.

The twins were growing every single day, it's true what they say! They grow so quickly you're afraid to even blink.

We went on our first walk together as a family through the park and back it was beautiful until of course the press caught us! Thankfully we was right by our home so they couldn't snap any photos! I guess I'll never be ready for all that side especially not with the children.

"Baby, I've got to head to the office? Something important has come up wil you be ok for an hour?" Leyton reluctantly asked.

"Of course. I have Jane if I need help but I'll be fine you go ..."
"I love you" he whispered as his lips met mine.

I guess with Leyton being gone for a bit it gives me the chance to see what it will be like when he does eventually go back to work.

I know I can do this, but something is telling me I can't?