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14. November 2018.

 Oh, I am pissed. I am angry at his behavior. I don't know what to do so I texted a friend who is in the states at the moment and also my sister. My friend told me to ignore him, to be harsh if I have to but my sister said that he is being rude not to reply to a text that is concerning the training. I asked her if I should be cold and she said no, act like nothing happened which he did but I didn't. I was pissed, I had a negative attitude. Of course, I was angry, I mean ignoring my texts that are training related? Are you kidding me? I mean I know that he has a life and responsibilities but isn't this one of them? He didn't respond to the first and then my second, I wanted to give up but hell no. I was really angry at him so I showed that to him when I got there. "I see you are not in a mood." <You noticed that?> Oh, wow. Am I right or what? I know that I texted him late, well not that late, first it was around five in the afternoon and then around nine, I think. It was a little bit irresponsible but what do I know, right? I'm just a girl, just a client, just a somebody... Yes, I was angry at him but I couldn't stay like that. Today I'm on my period so this all may be my hormones, it's my usual day. I always get like this on my first day, mood swings, but mostly I am sad, angry, I also feel like I could kill someone so don't get on my bad side when I'm on my first day. Guys don't normally understand the period days and what is it doing to us. They are so clueless unless they ask. Well, he did ask me something but I am happy that we didn't go too much into it. It's an uncomfortable topic and I'm not up to talk about it with a guy especially if that guy is not my boyfriend, I don't know, it's weird. He just couldn't understand that I can't do exercises laying down, it's not a situation you want to be in and that would be super uncomfortable for both of us. After some time he asked me on what day I was, I told him it is my first day, I was surprised that he asked me that. I wanted to explain to him but that would be super weird and unwanted conversation.

I don't know if he was planning to but when I left the gym I found him outside smoking. We said our goodbyes and I was about to leave when he called me out so I turned around to him. He asked me if I watched that movie that was on Friday, Shuttered Island, his favorite. I said that I did and that's how the conversation started. I told him that I loved the ending so we talked about it for a bit. It was nice, I loved it, I love these conversations, these moments that we have. Even if it's just movies that we talk about, that's something that we bonded over, where we connected the most. I remember when he told me that he watched The Mummy, my favorite, even though it's not his favorite genre he liked it. It feels good when we're like this, it feels natural. If I could I would talk with him all day. I felt like, that is the guy that I fell for.