It was a classic day at the gym, it was loud because of the music and I did fifteen minutes on a bike. I decided to tell him that I want to take a break, it's not because of anything, it's just the holidays are coming and I want to go on a vacation and to be honest a little break from training and also from Will would be nice. For some reason, I was avoiding talking about it but I had to, I must tell him. He was talking about next week and there I saw my window of opportunity. I told him how I need to take a break but he didn't quite take it well. From the way he responded he sounded like I'm not supposed to take a break like I'm supposed to be dedicated to this twenty – four seven. I have been training for the past two months and all I wanted was to have a vacation with myself in a cozy apartment with my book in my hands on a snowy day. I want to enjoy winter properly but apparently, I'm asking too much. This is not the main thing in my life. I didn't like how he handled the situation.
I need a break from him, he is sometimes unbelievable, aside from that he is a lot like me but he is too much to handle sometimes. It's not all about him and training, sometimes I need to do my own thing. Doing exercise is something that is helping me to be healthy but also to feel good about myself. That's something that I was thinking about today when I was getting ready. I finally feel good in my skin and I finally can get in my underwear in front of other women in the dressing room. Before I was so insecure and I hated my body but now it's not just that I lost weight I finally feel good about myself, I feel beautiful and amazing and good looking. I could even do it in front of him... Anyway... He hurt me today but it's because I let him. I know that I am sensitive and fragile especially now because of Will but I let him hurt me because... I don't know why. Wait, is he doing a macho thing? Was he like that so he can prove something to me, to himself? I don't understand him, I never did. Later he dropped the act and asked me where I am going. I told him that I am going on a mountain nearby. He was warm again. I don't understand his mood swings. Is he having those days? Today he wasn't paying too much attention to me but I didn't care, I cared about training and I was focused to do it right. When I was done I asked him to do a massage on Friday so he started calculating in his head. "Text me and we'll arrange it." After my shower I put some makeup, I looked up in a mirror and saw one beautiful girl. This time he didn't say anything.
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Non-FictionA life. One fragment of this life, of this young woman's life, is particularly hard for her. She's fighting through life to get everything that she ever wanted but there are many obstacles to get there, she keeps falling but she always manages to ge...