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31. March 2019.

 He is so punctual, like a clock. When it comes to morning texts he always texts me at 10. At first, I thought why but when you think about it I would do the same. Ten is the middle, it's not too early it's not too late, it is the perfect time to text someone, everything before it's just rude because you're waking up that person.

When I got to the gym, I forgot that he said he has clients, there were three women, it was like family therapy. I was on my eleventh minute when he came to me "How's the shoulder, any pain?" "No pain." "What's new with you?" "Nothing, it's pretty much the same." Which I wasn't supposed to say. I could have started the conversation but no, I wasn't thinking so I just shut and that's why he left, he left back to work. How dumb can I be? He gave me classic exercises for the shoulder so he could be with his clients. I know my stuff but they need him more than me, I don't need full attention.

I think that I can be more relaxed and open with him. Open to say what's on my mind. I think he's cute and sweet and I wish I could tell him that, I'm not that bold. When I got out of the gym he was standing there smoking a cigar. I got closer to him like I wanted to tell him or ask him something but my brain froze. With just a facial expression he was asking me 'what's up?'. "I wanted to tell you something but I forgot." "C'mon, remember." I was trying and then it hit me. "Oh, right. Send me some of the pages of your book, I would love to read." "I will, I'll screenshot it." I wanted to say something else but it's better that I didn't. I want to be there for him, supportive. I know that he has a lot on his plate right now and I know he'll call me out when he's free, I have hope. I know that he will and that's why I don't want to be pushy, he seems stressed and forgetful.