He killed me today physically. I am so tired right now that I could fall asleep while typing but I'm here drinking coffee to wake up. I have no idea what happened to him, what motivated him to make this training hell. I literally couldn't breathe, I wanted to kill him. Jesus!
It's not a surprise when I say that I just wasn't in a mood. Anything can just change my mood but now, I want to rip their heads off. I am angry and annoyed at everyone around me. My mom was getting on my last nerve, I hate that my sister is still here and all I want is privacy, my own space, and nothing else. If I'm sad or annoyed or just not in a mood or if I want to cry I don't want them going around asking me what's wrong. Can I cry without all the questions? I am so annoyed today, it's like there is a bug in my head just poking my nerves. I was so pissed that I just needed to go to the gym. I was there an hour earlier and I was punching the bag as much as I could. All the anger, all the madness from the inside I managed to get it all out. It is so liberating. Unfortunately, I made a mistake by coming earlier because I tired myself so when I was supposed to do the training with them I barely could do it all. I needed to punch the freaking bag, I just had to.
I'm at the very bottom of this so-called friendship and I don't know what I can do with him at all. He's just not interested in me and there is nothing left for me to do, maybe I'll just remove myself from his life, maybe it's the best for him, maybe it's better without me.
I wish I could just stop everything, I wish that I could tell him that I can't do this anymore, that I can't be doing training with him, it's just too hard to say those words, I don't know if I can.
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Non-FictionA life. One fragment of this life, of this young woman's life, is particularly hard for her. She's fighting through life to get everything that she ever wanted but there are many obstacles to get there, she keeps falling but she always manages to ge...
