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22. July 2019.

 I'm somewhat cheerful, I feel lighter, better, with content.

I had trouble working out at home so I went to the gym earlier so I could do them there. Earlier today I got a call that woke me up from an unknown number but I didn't answer just because it was an unknown number for me. While I was on the bike I got the call again from an unknown number and my thought was that it is the same person but I still didn't answer. After another missed call I got a text saying "Have you started training?" My mind went crazy, who else knows that I have training now, I had no clue so I texted "Who is this?" When I got a text back I started laughing. "It's me, Will, this is my second number." He called again and this time I answered. He asked me to fill in for him with this boy because he's going to be late and I said that I wouldn't mind. I have to say that sometimes he really amazes me. He wasn't that late but when he came he gave me this look that I want to say it's friendly but... I want to use a... Not sure what word I'm looking for but it's because we see each other almost every day, it's a habitual greeting, it was easy, lighter, cool, I loved it. I totally forgot that we are alone today, I mean besides that boy. I don't know how to explain for today. It was more like the feeling when you can breathe, just like when I was in Rome. We laughed, well mostly me but he did too. It was fun, fresh, different. The most incredible thing that has happened was with that boy, I was impressed, I was wowed. So, what happened is that boy was upset because he couldn't do the exercise right, he got all upset, and I saw that he was about to cry, I see that he's insecure and I felt helpless. I wanted to help but I didn't know how and because of it I was a bit uncomfortable but Will, he was incredible. Will was going easy on him, he was gentle and supportive and patient with that boy and that amazed me how good he is with him. I wanted to get close to them but I saw that he got everything under control so I just minded my own business. He gave a boy a hug and my heart was melting, I couldn't... it was really something. Then he patiently helped him finish exercises, the boy was still scared and he was so gentle with him, he was persistent because the boy needed to succeed, he needed to believe in himself that he can do it and that he can do this. Dear God, that's what I love most about him, I was in awe. I turned my head away so he wouldn't see my expression. Later on, I heard him ordering food for himself and something for the boy, and for some reason I opened my mouth. "You could've order one for me too." "Oh, you wanted too?" But he has already hung up and he was about to call them again for me. "Oh, it's fine, it's ok, you don't have to." "Sorry, can I change the order?" He added mine fast and now we were finishing up training while waiting. For five minutes we waited in the lobby when the delivery guy came. We were all changed and ready to go but before that, I had to pay for mine, actually, Will wouldn't let me. "What do I owe you?" "What do you owe me? Oh, just go away." It wasn't harsh, it was more like 'Oh, shut up, you don't owe me anything.' Dude, I'm going to kill you, but coffee is on me.' I was thinking to myself. We went out with our burgers and I was with him while waiting for the bus. I had something in my mind to tell him but I didn't have the courage to do it. To complement a guy, I never did that but I did something else. "You really had the patience with that boy, you are persistent, that's what I like about you." Damn it I should have said 'That's what I love about you.', it's fine, at least I said something. William was explaining to me why he was like that instead of taking the compliment and say 'Thank you'. There is something that I noticed and that I liked, he stopped asking me if I am continuing with the training because every end of the month he asks me if I am continuing but not anymore. I love how he knows me, I love how I am growing on him, how he remembers the small things and not just about the training. I think that our relationship is getting easier, everything that we did makes us better, it makes us closer.