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14. March 2019.

 I have a headache and somehow it is affecting my mood. I don't know where to start, I feel like crying for some reason. Today was good and I don't have a reason to be sad or down, I don't know what's up with me. I haven't rested after the gym and my back hurts a little, maybe it's because of all that. I'll try again.

Yesterday in the afternoon I texted him to see if we are ok to meet at one. "Yes, of course." And he sent me that winky emoji, he is so cute when he's sending emojis, then I think he's really like that when he texts with me. He's opening more, he's sharing more. There was something that he told me when I was on the bike but I don't remember what it was but I do remember the point of it. The point was that you need to find that trustworthy person with who you can share anything with and so he patted me on the shoulder. I knew that he was talking about himself. He told me indirectly that I can trust him with anything. I'm crying now, I don't know why is this affecting me so much. I know that I have trust in him but the way he told me in person...

We talked like always and with it I noticed that he listens to me, he remembered that I am soon traveling because he usually forgets. He told me that he's also traveling soon but it is a business trip. I am overwhelmed and this is going well but I think that I am scared of where this may be going. Maybe it's going towards friendship and I am really happy about it but maybe it's going towards something else and maybe I'm not ready. I never had someone who cares about me this much that I don't know what to do with it, that I don't know how to deal with it.